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Good morning!
It's 2 AM, and I can't sleep. Nothing bad, really, other than the fact that I should be in my bed getting my much needed beauty sleep.
There's nothing that bothers me, nothing in particular that I'm thinking about, I'm just not asleep.
So, I decided to get up, do an early weigh-in and write my journal.
I was debating for a little while if I should wait and weigh in later, but at the same time I wanted coffee and I wanted a realistic weigh-in before I start drinking anything.
”So, how's the weight, Keld?”
Actually, I reached a new low. Again. I'm tempted to bow my head in shame, as the ”new low” mission is no longer. I actually need to stay at the weight I am.
Today I am 82.7 kilos. It's only 100g down, from my previous low a few days ago, but it's also a somewhat lower body fat percentage, which indicates that more is to come.
At the same time I am super comfortable eating what I am eating. Yesterday I had about 1500 calories, including TWO large strawberry/protein smooties and a protein bar. I really didn't feel like any more food, and I went to bed more than satisfied.
I can't help thinking that maybe a solution to this is not to eat more, but to do less cardio. The walks are quite long – 5 kilometers daily as a minimum – and over the course of a week, taking all the little walks I do into account too, I walk what would equal a marathon. Over the course of a week this burns something like 3500 calories – 500 per day. Then on top of that comes circuit training, music playing, standing up at work in general, and all the other little tidbits that I do to stay active.
I like the walks though, I would hate to be without them. And, it probably wouldn't even really be enough to compensate for my ”low calorie intake”. These last three days I have been more than 1,000 calories away from my allowance of 3000+ daily (5 days per week).
I really want to up it, but I feel like a stuffed pig at the end of the day, and I am honestly terrified of gaining weigh, or getting used to eating a lot. It's the direct opposite of what I have taught myself for 2½ years.
So what's a guy to do?
For now, I will simply keep going, and see where I end up. If I keep losing weight like I do right now, I'll have to change something. And really, I will. But let's see what happens.
Habits can be so hard to change. The theory is easy and obvious, but old habits do die hard.
So many of us struggle getting out of the grip of bad food habits, such as over-eating. And before I know it, I'm on the other side, struggling to eat enough! How weird is that?
Of course, some of it is because of the rules I set for myself.
1. Intermittend Fasting twice per week.
2. No sugars and ”dumb choices” during weekdays.
This limits my ways of upping the calories, but I don't see it as a bad move to NOT eat candy and chocolate. However, the candy and chocolate actually COULD help me not lose weight. How ironic is this?!?
Don't worry, I'm not gonna go down that road.
It is, however, comforting to know that I can have slip-up days now and then and absolutely nothing will happen if I do. If I chose to go eat 6000 calories tomorrow, I would end up at the same weight as last week. Which is what I want. :)
Again, not gonna do that. I'm merely putting this as an example.
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I am definitely seeing massive changes in my body though.
I bought a new belt back in mid-February. I bought the wrong size, and got one that was much too large.
I was already in the last hole of the belt on my first try. As much as it was a nice feeling to have failed, it was highly annoying. Within a few weeks, I went on the three weeks of Low Cal Dieting. I had to make another hole in the belt to make it fit me.
Well, yesterday I made the THIRD hole in the belt. I hope I won't be needing any more.
Also, I cut off about 6 inches. It was way too long and "flappy". :)
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Speaking of Low Cal Days – I'm thinking of doing a Low Cal Day today. It's not scheduled for today, as my next one is on Sunday. However, we're gonna do a massive jam session with Burnin' Live! and my brother's band ShockPop. We're gonna prepare a few songs to jam together for this coming Wednesday's jam night at the music venue where we played with the bag pipes dude a month ago.
It'll be fun, but I'm pretty sure we're gonna do something food related, now that we're gonna be a 7 piece band all of a sudden. I see ordering food from the local pizza place happening.
So, rather than screwing up a Sunday Low Cal day, I'd rather take it today. I think this will be easier and smarter.
Besides, my day plans for this fine Thursday are pretty basic. I've got some music to rehearse, I want to spend some time just surfing online, I have some little bits and pieces to do, and I know that when I have days like that time just flies by. It's a GOOD day to do Low Cal. Then again, who knows – maybe I'll simply get so fed up just sitting here doing essentially nothing that I'll go have a workout and a cup of coffee at the gym. :) Yup. I like that gym. Go ahead, sk1nnyfuture, tease me. LOL.
I'm essentially hoping I can distract myself enough enough to either skip breakfast or just have one of my soups. Then, when Wife goes to work for her ONE day before a three day weekend, I will walk her there and continue to do my 5 kilometer walk.
When I come home, I'll be doing all my stuff, and probably stop for a soup for lunch at noon. Then I will have a nice 540 calorie allowance for dinner, so Wife and I can easily find something good for dinner. If I have leftover calories at the end of the day I can either throw them away or have a little extra something, though I generally try to avoid eating after dinner, as I see that I feel better physically if I don't.
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So, I got a new 2nd job! Actually, I got a new 4th (or 5th, or 6th, depending how you look at it – whether you consider the bands work or pleasure) job!
I now officially work at the gym where I spend so much time already. This is definitely cool. Not only do I get to work with something I think I'm gonna love doing, but I also get to help people AND I get to promote my weight loss class. :) Think business, Keld. :)
The main job is essentially to take care of the people working out. Clean a little here and there, and do introduction one-on-ones with new customers who needs to learn the system of circuit training.
The pay is in no way great, pretty much minimum wage, but I think it could be compensated for in extra business in my class, and in sheer productivity for me. This is definitely good for me.
I'm all excited about doing this.
So, my dance card is really getting full. Wife doesn't mind – I have obviously cleared this with her. It'll give us a little extra cash, and I will be able to take Wife and I out on more little trips like the upcoming Paris one, and buy some nice music gear that I'd like.
Another great little thing about my new job is that I get a few perks.
Of course, I get to work out for free. Win!
Second, I get discounts 20% at several sports equipment stores in town. They also have certain specials just for us. I already took advantage of this and got a set of NICE running shoes with a 60% discount. Another Win.
So now I finally have a full set of exercise clothing. Actually two, with one pair of shoes. I can live with that. :)
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Like I mentioned, today is technically the last day of vacation. Tomorrow – Friday – is a national holiday, so there is no work. Wife is back at work today, so I will have to do without her for some hours. I miss her already.
Today is cake day at work, and Wife usually brings home cake for Daughter. I will of course not have any – it's ”against the rules”, and would furthermore destroy my Low Cal Day completely.
I generally don't want to be TOO strict on zero cake on cake day – cake day is a nice break for the usual humdrum, but I know what that damn sugar does to me. I'm way better off simply having some fruit or something else.
Still, if Wife makes something crazy delish, and I feel that I can handle only having ONE PIECE, then I will do it. But I need to really clear it with myself first, and I know that generally the answer will be ”not interested”.
It's amazing that I mentally is in this place now. Not long ago, it would have been completely irresistible and something I'd have to be arguing with myself over.
Good riddance. :)
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I'm kind of debating if it's "too early" to post my journal. Knowing how the Fatsecret buddy journal feed works, I know that early posts tend to drop out at the bottom of the list for people (like me) who have a lot of buddies.
Meh, I'll post it. Maybe I'll do a repeat posting later. Is that an idea?
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Today, I'm thankful for:
- Getting up early when I simply can't sleep.
- New low – it's still a nice feeling, even if I'm not supposed to.
- Morning coffee (or is it really ”night coffee” when it's 2 AM?)
- Kitty Cat snuggling up in my lab while I'm typing this!
- A great day with full focus ahead!
Happy Thursday! Life is good!
EDIT:
So, since today will be Low Cal Day, I have decided to also make it a "reset your hunger" day. I had no snacks after dinner yesterday, which was at 5 PM, and I haven't had breakfast. I am in no way hungry. I'm enjoying coffee and water. I will simply skip lunch, and be looking forward to chicken meatballs for dinner. This meal will cost me in the vicinity of 300 calories, so I even have room for dessert! LOL!
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182.3 lb
Lost so far: 159.4 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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losing 9.3 lb a week
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