#IHaveNoIdeaButThankYouSanta
#RememberThisNextTimeTheLossStalls
#YouSaidLongJournalsWereOkay
Here's a fun site for ‘pounds loss comparison’ if you want to research and share yours:
https://www.bluebulbprojects.com/MeasureOfThings/results.php?amt=60&comp=weight&unit=lbs&searchTerm=60+pou
So I’ve lost 5 gallons of paint.
Otherwise? While I don't wear my tracker during the day because it keeps insisting I get up and move more (haha) I do still wear it at night to monitor my sleep and in the weirdest sense of 'the machines have become the master' I am very sensitive to NOT disappointing it.
So I'm putting the phone down, turning off the TV and closing my eyes just to see those statistics improve. So maybe this much needed sleep is behind the 'I haven't changed anything else I’m doing' recent weight loss woosh. Let’s hope my tracker and I have a long term relationship even when it begins to slip farther up my forearm when I lose more weight.
Another weird observation of my behavior: I am a chronic liar. This was pretty much confirmed when I won every single game of “Fibbage” we played on Thanksgiving (except the games I lost on purpose because, otherwise, no one would want to play against me anymore, right?).
Truth: I really don’t have much hunger or appetite lately. I know, that should be a blessing, but I do want to keep my intake consistent at about 1800 so that when my appetite returns (and yes, it will, it ALWAYS does) I won’t start the weight regain because I start eating more.
I am not saying this is scientific. It’s just a feeling I have from so so so many years of ‘dieting’ where I would cut my caloric intake on purpose, have a massive loss, but then regain when I began eating again.
And from ‘that’ I would give up altogether because I’d experience a defeatist ‘well, WTF, if I’m going to be fat just because I eat like a normal person, oh well, I’ll just be fat. That’s how my body reacts. That’s my metabolism.’
And it didn’t help much when a dietician told me some people are predispositioned to be overweight and that no matter ‘what’ they do, they will gain.
I did confess this isn’t scientific, yes? Because I DO know in all logic I wasn’t gaining because I was eating like a normal person… I was likely, most likely, gaining because I was OVEReating. A little extra here. More than I needed there. The sweet condensed milk in my afternoon iced coffee. The peanut butter and jelly on my oatmeal. Those six cookies instead of one or two.
Yes, a supporting argument could be made that overeating IS eating like a normal person otherwise we wouldn’t have a whole website full of members here who do the same.
But I was obviously eating too much for MY weight loss or weight maintenance because that was what my body had grown accustomed to consuming. There, is that scientific?
So, I go back to my own personal, individual metabolic ward study where I refused to drop my intake down to the recommended 1200 ((or even below)) calories daily this time. Even when I wasn’t losing any weight this fall, I maintained a consistent 1800-2000 calorie intake average rather than decreasing my intake.
I know this reads like ‘okay, you just wrote you were eating above a suggested RDI but not losing - are you an idiot?’.
THAT is a question for another day. But for all intents and purposes of this topic: I was happy that I wasn’t gaining.
I know there are more NSV’s to come for me when I’m at a lower weight. And those will be nice. But I was happy - and you can go back in my journals to find this ((because now that I confessed my chronic liar syndrome I feel defensive when I’m NOT lying)) - I was happy to be able to eat at the level I was and not be gaining weight.
But, finally, the point of the liar confession? I nearly lied to my food diary yesterday - yet in reverse. I’d only taken in about 900 calories (about 60% of my goal) so I started recording food I hadn’t eaten.
Yes, I need therapy. Or confession. Or medication. Something.
Anyway...
