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This week has been pretty terrible, and I was lucky that I didn't gain any weight, because I binged twice and basically stopped counting calories. I had a rough week, the restaurant I work at is getting new owners, and they are bringing in their own people. So I no longer have a job, and it is entirely out of control. I have worked there since they opened, about four months, and while I had never waitressed before, I am a fast learner and I managed to be the only person who stayed from the inital owners to this takeover. It just... Frustrates me. Because I did nothing wrong, worked very hard, and was on call 24/7. I stopped going out, cancelled both doctor and dentist appointments, and missed my grandfather's 88th birthday. I didn't mind, because I love to work. And now, I just feel useless and tired. So the cookies, pizza, and ramen became my friends.
Today is a new day though, so I will start fresh, counting everything and writing it down. I will not let my circumstances be used as an excuse.
Also, I realize that there are a lot of people far worse off than I am. I am sorry for complaining, but this is the third time that I have fully invested myself in something, done nothing wrong, and ended up in the cold. I'm 18, and I have already closed a business that was to be mine, and then worked at a couple of horrible jobs, and then lost this one for no reason. I'm just frustrated because I work hard, literally adore working 70+ hour weeks, and I feel useless when I am not working. But I realize I came off as selfish and inconsiderate, with a solid bit of whine involved, and for that I apologize.
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