madaboutmoose's Journal, 06 December 2012

Since I woke early this morning I thought I would try to write a bit more on my journal. DH arrives home around 3:00 in the morning and typically I don't wake up but today I did. I had a heck of a time getting back to sleep and finally gave up after laying there in bed for almost an hour!! Oh well. Some mornings are like that. I'll regret it later.

Blue, my doberman, seems to be better. He ate some food and drank some water and ate his "cookies" last night so I am hoping whatever it is that was troubling him is passing. There surely is never a dull moment in my house.

After being 224ish for most of the past week the scale finally dipped today. The funny thing is I weighed numerous times and the scale gave me all sorts of numbers. The lowest was 221.6 but that just didn't seem like it could be right. When it said 223.4 three times in a row I finally decided maybe it was accurate. Perhaps my scale is possessed?

I decided to empty my trash compactor this morning. When I pulled out the bag it broke and trash spilled all over my kitchen floor!! I just washed the floor on Sunday!! RATS. So that was my first task this morning, scooping up all the trash and trying to clean the kitchen floor.

My aunt (who is just 6 months older than I) sent me a tin of Mrs. Field's cookies that arrived in the mail yesterday. What? Just what I needed right?! She said they were "Sweets for the sweet." Sweet but oh what a temptation. Fortunately the cookies are wrapped into pairs of two and I think I will stick them in the freezer. Of course, frozen cookies are quite tasty ... but still ... perhaps out of sight out of mind?

I absolutely need to stay on track and not "reward" myself with sweets right now. I feel like I am holding on by a thin thread to the idea of getting back to a decent weight. Every day I am tempted to indulge. I know me. Right now if I indulge the battle will roar louder than it is now. And so ... I carry on.

I feel rather "out" of it lately. Work is busy so at least I haven't too much time to dwell on things but I feel like I am having an "out of body" experience. That word ... cancer ... keeps creeping into my brain. I feel disjointed. I feel overwhelmed. Hubby is trying a whole slew of "alternative" treatments to battle his cancer. I have a hard time getting excited about them ... though I know doctors are not always "right."

I guess I just get through each day and take it a moment at a time.

Well I thought I had more positive things to say!! Well DH has asked me to make him up some turkey salad so I guess I better get off my duff and get moving. I skipped Pilates yesterday because I needed to be at an early home visit. Best not skip again today.

Despite all ... funkiness aside ... grateful I am for ...

Thoughtful people.

Another day, another opportunity to shine.


Scraping the bottom of the barrel this morning my friends ...

223.4 lb Lost so far: 35.8 lb.    Still to go: 38.4 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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1498 kcal

Fat: 72.64g | Prot: 144.01g | Carb: 66.43g.   Breakfast: Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Low Fat Mayonnaise Dressing, Velveeta Cheese Slices, Egg. Lunch: Cottage Cheese (Lowfat 2% Milkfat) , Pico De Gallo (Mild), Boiled Egg, Chicken Breast Meat (Broilers or Fryers) . Dinner: Roasted Broiled or Baked Chicken. Snacks/Other: Low Fat Ice Cream Bars - Cookies 'n Cream Truffle, Chocolate Caramel Coffee Creamer. more...

3080 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Driving - 2 hours, Pilates - 30 minutes, Resting - 6 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 7 hours. more...