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I am doing all right with this weight loss, it is just that things are bringing me down a little today.
I wish that things in life were easy and that the path that I am on was smooth with no bumps in it. However, I know that that is impossible. There are things in life that just aren't going to be easy. Period. It makes me a little sad but I have realized that it won't matter who I will meet in my life at this point in my life, there will always be a past that they have.
It is impossible to meet someone at 36 and discover that they are perfect AND don't have some sort of past. Whether that be they have children, are divorced, going through divorce, maybe never had kids but are very childish and need to grow up, it doesn't matter. It all happens for a reason. I know that, and I also know that I am not going to get picky at this point either. I have met someone who makes me more than happy and he stands beside me all the time. He doesn't let me ever feel less than worthy and he will never allow anyone else to make me feel that way either.
He is truly one of a kind.
All the rest of the crap or people who may make me feel that way? They can all go to hell. I need to take care of me and only me and this diet and excercise regiem is just the tip of the ice berg. You have to be truly happy inside out because you could lose all the weight and still feel miserable and never get where you want because you start to eat and eat and eat all over again to cover up the misery you are experiencing.
Eating is a crutch, the illness if you let it get out of hand. Excercise and wellness, really taking care of your mental state, is the cure.
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176.6 lb
Lost so far: 7.4 lb.
Still to go: 31.6 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 4.2 lb a week
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