Snowwhite100's Journal, 09 March 2019

The only thing I can say after binging yesterday for lunch, dinner, and all evening on sweets is that I am surely addicted. Once I got started I just kept going. After lunch I didn't feel good with the rush of sugar. But after a salad dinner, I started back up, and kept eating them even beyond them satisfying anything but my taste. I used the excuse in the evening that the ice maker was leaking and everything below it was frozen solid. We had to take all the food out (again) to let it defrost to get all the ice out of the drawers, etc. to even get the food out to get to the ice maker. It was a couple hours work for both my husband and I. After turning the valves off under the sink and under the refrigerator, it is only now dripping. We have wood floors that was a concern also. What a mess it was, and we had dealt with a leaking ice maker twice in the last week.

Using any excuse to eat more sweets, sounds just like an alcoholic to me, telling myself as long as I had gone this far, I might as well go ahead and have whatever I want that was in the house (for my husband). I sure didn't feel good last night, my stomach is upset today, and I gained 2 pounds exactly. The last time I did this was Christmas Day 2 1/2 months ago. I hope it is at least another two and a half months before I do it again. I do have a family spaghetti dinner coming up in a week and I don't know what I will do.
111.8 lb Lost so far: 7.0 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed poorly.

Diet Calendar Entry for 09 March 2019:
890 kcal Fat: 59.83g | Prot: 40.82g | Carb: 48.72g.   Breakfast: Coffee. Lunch: Butter, Egg. Dinner: Onions, Kirkland Signature Organic Coconut Oil, Beef Tenderloin (Lean Only, Trimmed to 1/4" Fat, Prime Grade), Potatoes (Flesh Without Skin, Without Salt, Boiled). more...
gaining 14.0 lb a week

18 Supporters    Support   

Comments 
Snowwhite, just look at your weight chart - Sure, there are little ups and downs, but the MAIN TRAJECTORY is constantlly down. You're doing just fine! Don't beat yourself up - or I'll have to come out there and beat you up myself! 
09 Mar 19 by member: Debbie Cousins
Consider this a small "speed bump" along your road to success :) 
09 Mar 19 by member: shiny50
hang in there.  
09 Mar 19 by member: jan-e333
Family dinners can be challenging. Bring a dish you love that works with your woe so you can share and have that. Of course, add spaghetti to your plate but try for a smaller amount and fill up on other healthier options if you can. It’s only one meal so enjoy!  
09 Mar 19 by member: Chow moore
drink lots of water and FLUSH it out! start over on the morning. you might have a hangover but the water will help! Been there! 
09 Mar 19 by member: older-than-dirt
Don't beat yourself up. You are honest and just human. The important thing is that you went right back on your food plan the next day. If not the 2 lbs. could have increased to 20. I'm sure we have all had similar experiences with food. For me, I had to learn to be honest with myself. If not I just set myself up for a binge. 
09 Mar 19 by member: bicoastalgal
I understand the binge thing and the sweets thing. And eating with your fam that’s tough. Climb right back on that horse and put it behind you. 
09 Mar 19 by member: Merrywinkle
Good time to ask yourself, what has worked for you in the previous months? 
09 Mar 19 by member: adefwebserver
Aside from forgiving yourself and moving on, there is a lot of basic and very human diet wisdom that I rely on around food addictions. I've found (and I'm not the originator of this idea) that deprivation is not the way to keep a person eating in a good way. Among other things, I need to feel full, so I make sure I have handy supplies. I eat a lot of carrots and drink water. I also eat a couple of hard-boiled eggs most days and count out little baggies of 21 raw almonds. One more thing I've found to be helpful is to play off one addiction against another. I have a bunch of little addictions, and they're not all food. I like to buy lottery tickets, for example, but I have had to really limit myself because--well, it's stupid and I'd rather save the money and retire happily someday. At any rate, now that I am in an early and kind of strict stage of my weight-loss plan, every day that I stay under my calorie goal I let myself buy a lottery ticket. $1. I don't know why, but it makes a difference in my motivation. It also makes it much easier, somehow, to just get back on the horse after I fall off. The weird thing is that I actually don't end up buying the lottery tickets. I literally walk into the 7-11 and turn around and walk out before I get to the counter. So much of human behavior is about the horizon. And the horizon always recedes. 
09 Mar 19 by member: militeacher
That’s why I’m terrified of taking that first bite! I can’t handle moderation right now. Don’t know if I ever will. 
09 Mar 19 by member: Nanofgoat
ugh... sadly food addiction is very real. I once got this super mega exercise/diet plan off an infomercial. It worked amazingly, but..... on the 7th day I was literally crying while I ate my breakfast. It was so horribly restrictive that it was not doable for me. It's ok to have a treat here and there. You may have to sacrifice calories from another meal, but sometimes it is really worth it. 
09 Mar 19 by member: eli white
We have all been there. Like all addictions it is easier to have none than just 1. Skip a meal or 2 and drink tons of water. I drink selzer with apple cider vinegar and lemon. It helps curb appetite and desire for sweets. 
10 Mar 19 by member: lose20now
Ugggh... I know exactly what you mean. It's terrible. I will do the same thing, feel just awful and then what do I do to try and make myself feel better? I go looking for more food! Like food will help somehow. I hate those days. :(  
10 Mar 19 by member: Cindyanne1
Been there, but only recently realized I cannot Touch sugar... just like an alcoholic. I think u have that right. I went half crazy for two days... hunger was over the top... stayed on Keto foods but ate them as though I was starving. Looked back over anything I had done differently, and OMG it was my new liquid vitamins. They apparently added sugar for taste. Just one teaspoon per day with 5grams of sugar set me to binge eating. I know now I cannot Touch sugar, at all. For your spaghetti dinner.. make yourself some foods you really enjoy that are on your program. I use LaCroix drinks to get past problem areas , too. If I am drinking these and eating MY food, while others indulge, it helps me to get past it.  
10 Mar 19 by member: justdoit!
I have this problem with sugar two. I read about this a lot and It is already proven that sugar is more addictive than cocaine in our brain. So don’t blame your self for it, the food industry spends a crazy amount money on that to keep us addicted and buying more and more. What I did and have been helping in my journey is avoiding buying industrialized food. My main reason is that they use at least 7 different names for sugar and we are keeping our addiction without knowing it. I respect my cravings if I want eat something I eat, no guilty about it. But back on track in the next meal. Don’t have temptation at home. If you want an Ice cream buy a small one eat and get over it. Why torture yourself? My friend is in the same journey and she said to me I have kids I have to have sweets and snacks at home. I questioned her are you sure? Why your kids need to eat bad? Don’t they already attend to a lot of birthdays were they eat bad food? She agreed, and said that use her kids as an excuse to buy potato chips. We have ups and downs, don’t blame yourself if you get out of track go to the gym and eat healthy the next meal. I have sure that you can achieve your goal. Try change sweets for dark chocolate, this helped me too. I am still far away, and my only goal here is helping and saying what is helping me, I know that we already judge ourselves enough. So don’t feel judged by me. Keep going you will achieve your goals. 
10 Mar 19 by member: CMTree
What is really sad is I don’t think you enjoyed one mouthful. 
10 Mar 19 by member: Nana Ellen

     
 

Submit a Comment


You must  sign in to submit a comment
 

Other Related Links

Members



Snowwhite100's weight history


Get the app
    
© 2024 FatSecret. All rights reserved.