kingkeld's Journal, 23 August 2012

Good morning, friends!

It's Thursday morning, and I am SO TIRED.

It's been a long week already, and it seems that it will keep going full blast, and that feels rough on me.

I'm contemplating staying home from work today, taking it easy and recover a bit. I don't have anything urgent (like, REALLY urgen) to do at work, and it's a 9 hour work day. I just don't see myself surviving that today. I'm still debating whether I should call in or not. I might just go back to sleep, get some rest, and then go to work late. I dunno yet.

Yesterday went great. We had some meetings at work, I had some things to do and the day passed pretty quickly. I stayed away from sugars as planned and did good on pretty much all food choices.

The only "glitch" was that I had lunch early as we were going for a meeting on the other side of town, and I didn't want to sit there hungry. Then, it turns out that they have lunch planned. I dediceded to have half a sandwich, and registered it in my food diary accordingly. I stuck to plan, I just ate something I hadn't planned out.

I had planned to consume less than 1600 calories, but I ended up 1800. That's okay. Actually, I have decided to up my RDI a little bit. I have been looking at calories consumed and I do think I need a little more. I have decided to stay below 2000 instead of 1600. Let's see if it shows any results. I will still be doing Indulgence Day once a week - at least to the point where I can be just a little less vigilant - and I need some spare calories for it, but I think it'll be okay.

I am down a full lb since yesterday. I'm glad to see things going in the right direction. It's interesting how I fluctuate, but I can see that when I do certain things (avoid sugars, drink TONS of water, eat just a little better) then the weight seem to come down, at least to some point. I will try to keep going like this, but it's not always that easy.

I get pretty insisting on my water. I have set my phone to beep every hour on the hour, all day, and made it a habit to drink a large glass of water every time. I actually feel uncomfortable if I can NOT get to drink water when I hear the beeps. I feel like Pavlov's frickin' dog here. LOL.

Still, it give me results, and I just need to stick to it.

This is the hard part, but you all know that. Sticking to it. It's so strange - why is it that we have such a hard time sticking to such obvious food plans, when we know and feel how good they are for us?

I sure don't miss that over stuffed feeling from over eating. Do you? I sure don't feel dragging around all the extra kilos. Do you? I sure don't miss my high blood pressure, or my huffing and puffing going up the stairs. Do you?

Phone just beeped. Time for water! LOL!

So, why is it that we do this?

Personally, I can go nuts just wanting sugars and chocolates. It's crazy. I get instant satisfaction eating it, and then that feeling is gone pretty much immediately. Then I get annoyed that I did it, and that I added the calories to my RDI.

A day like yesterday it was kind of hard to avoid it. I wanted snacks but I fixed it by making a strawberry smoothie. Frozen strawberries, non-fat milk and sweetener. Not bad at all, and super tasty!

Today, I will do my very best to STILL stay off the sugars. Staying home, it will be tougher. I tend to get bored, and then the urges come. I think I'll re-watch the Paul McKenna shows, re-motivate and focus on other stuff that boredom and sugars.

But first, I need sleep. Hopefully I can sleep a few hours, catching up.

I've slept like a rock these last few weeks. There's been a few mornings where I got up very very early, as I felt that I slept enough. Also, there have been mornings where Wife got up, and it woke me up. That's the trouble. The moment I wake up, I feel that I'm done sleeping. If I stay in bed, I'll just lie there awake. I may as well get up then.

However, as I said, these last weeks I have slept okay. I just feel that I don't get enough sleep sometimes. I know my body will let me know when I am needing more sleep, and I think today is such a day.

So, today I am thankful for:
- the option to stay home.
- Morning Coffee (when I get up)

I hope you guys have an amazing day. Life is good!
190.0 lb Lost so far: 151.7 lb.    Still to go: 2.6 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entry for 23 August 2012:
1643 kcal Fat: 44.60g | Prot: 59.14g | Carb: 253.92g.   Breakfast: Sliced Ham (Extra Lean), Egg, Rye Bread (Reduced Calorie). Dinner: Frikadelle, Mixed Vegetables (Drained Solids, Canned). Snacks/Other: Hard Candies, Peanut Butter Cookies. more...
on diet kingkeld's own diet   losing 7.7 lb a week


King, reading your journal, I kind of had an epiphany. I think we eat because its more of an instinct. If there is food, eat it. The problem is we have not adapted to the abundances the last few centuries have provided us. I can imagine a person from the 1800's even going into a modern supermarket, and being blown away at the amount of food we have sitting around. Anyway, our thought for the day.  
22 Aug 12 by member: posterchild66
Hi Keld, I think eating can fill up some empty spaces in our lives, by giving instant satisfaction, that doesn't last long. Empty spaces might be boredom, lack of love, selfesteem or confidence, a hard time in life, compensation for not being able to do something and so on. For me, when I feel in that "lack of something" mood, eating chocolate is the first instinct, as a Pavlov's dog. (or chothes shopping). It would be better to stop that instinct and think about what we have and what we achieved in life, we could have a stronger sense of satisfaction, and this lasts longer than chocolate (and doesn't have impact on RDI). Point is: it's not easy at all to replace that instinct... 
23 Aug 12 by member: Lizzie983
Keld, I completely understand what you are going through. For me, the act of eating or better defined at times as overeating was in response to feeling anxiety. Whenever I have felt anxious I would instantly try to fill that anxiety with food. Whether it was a bagel with cream cheese or a double cheeseburger and fries, whatever it would take I would eat. I did not count calories nor did i care much for how the food affected my body other than to relieve the anxiety. There was short term relief but long term consequences. As a result, I went from a size 36 pant size in college to size 42 a few months ago. I allowed myself to basically fatten up because I did not find a healthy way to deal with the anxiety. Anxiety over what? Hmm, work anxiety (bad bosses..not now though), marriage (love the wife but at times we got into arguments), career choices (always think I should be farther along than I am), finances (salary issues) and family issues (mom had cancer...she passed away a month ago). All these things made me seek out a salve to pacify the anxiety. Starchy and fatty food were that short term oasis for me. However, it caused me to balloon up. Now I have taken back control of that. I applaud your efforts as they look like mine. Water is essential. Liquid calories are the easiest way to lose and gain weight. If you stick with water then you eliminate one source of calories. Also, stay away from soda/juice of any kind. Those drinks (even the diet kind) end up making you hunger...usually for salty foods. Its tough, there are days when you want to stray a bit from the regimen of the diet. Heck, at the airport before my London trip, I stopped at McD's and had a double quarter pounder and fries. A huge bump in the road for me. However, it was my birthday and I felt like splurging a little bit. Even though that was a huge caloric intake for me, I still did not break the 2000 calorie barrier. I moved past it and I am back on my diet. Perseverance is the name of the game. Losing weight is a marathon not a sprint. So stay strong and focus on your goals. You will get there. One lost day does not defeat you. A string of lost days, that is different.  
23 Aug 12 by member: Hildi72
I hope that you're getting the rest that you need. I feel the same as Lizzie does about why we eat. It is to fill a void. You're doing great trying to get this all figured out. 
23 Aug 12 by member: davidsmom
Rest up. You are so aware, and your drive is very focused. Even if you occasionally go off script, you go right back where you need to be. The smoothie sounds wonderful! I just discovered strawberries. I might have to rock that out! :-) 
23 Aug 12 by member: jessabridge4444
I hope you sorted out what you need to do - it sounded to me like you NEEDED to rest.... Hope you bucked up a BT :-) 
23 Aug 12 by member: Sk1nnyfuture
Congrats on your weight loss and the weight loss. 
23 Aug 12 by member: Helewis


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