kingkeld's Journal, 06 July 2012

Man, this is too depressing. :)

I'm saying it with a smile, but it does bug me. The weight fluctuation, that is.

I know these are "special conditions", but gaining two full kilos in two days when I am diligently trying to control every thing is kind of a downer.

Wife keeps telling me to lay off the counting and the weighing for a little while. I think she might be right. It's stressing me and annoying me. I just gotta eat what I know I should be eating and do right. Simple as that.

Now, I am VERY sure that the weight gain is coming from post-op fluids. I can literally see that I have more bulging around the wound, and it feels more tight. I don't like that one bit. It's supposed to go the OTHER way.

Today is technically the day where I can stop using my girdle at night, and just wear it at day time. I am very leary about this, as the fluids have NOT gone down (actually, it's gone up), and the purpose of the girdle is to help this.

I'm gonna try to call the hospital and talk to a doctor before I make my decision on this tonight. As much as I want to sleep more comfortably, I don't want to do it at the cost of slower healing.

My pants size is up to a ridiculous size. I have literally ONE pair of pants I can fit. They're my comfy sweat pants, and though I look awefully sporty, it gets old real fast to have to wash them constantly.

On a positive note, I think, my wound has begun to ooze just a little bit on the front. Of course, it smells GROSS, but at least a little is coming out. I wish there would be a few more holes for it to slowly seep. :) I was warned from the surgeon that this might happen, and that it could be a LOT of seeping, if it suddenly gets going. She said for me to not freak out even if a full cup comes out. It's normal. I'm pretty sure I'll freak out regardless. It's not something to see every day.

This is my first mission today. Call the hospital when they open their phones. I hope to get to actually talk to the surgeon, but that is probably not possible. I know she's one busy lady. Let's see what happens.

Next mission is to find out if my Boss is at work today.

My Supervisor/team leader has apparently quit her job while I've been out (I swear, I had nothing to do with it!!!), and I have been sending her my update emails on how I am doing. So I suppose I need to move to a higher step on the ladder and talk to the big boss about how I am doing. Wife is gonna check his calender and let me know if he is available at some point. I want to have everything straight with work, so I don't have any trouble with them.

Other than that, I don't have too much to do.

There is no rehearsal with The Black Peanut tonight, as our singer is on vacation. We're moving that session to Monday, which suits me fine - it'll give me a few more days to recover.

Also, yesterday I essentially started up TWO new bands. :) Yup. Why be in one band if you can be in three?! LOL.

Actually, one is very much a side project. It's the triple bass band. I found one more bass player so far, and he's interested in joining. It will be a "whenever we have time, we'll meet"-kinda band, so there is no real commitment. It will be something like 5-10 songs that we'll play, and that's about it. No biggie.

The other band is much more interesting.

Maybe some of you remember that I went jamming with some other guys, and an old friend of mine who's an excellent drummer.

Well, he and I want to do a "party rock" band, based on the 80's hard rock, but reaching both the 70's and the 90's now and then.

Think Twisted Sister, Quiet Riot, Deep Purple, Whitesnake, stuff like that. These are primarily gonna be songs that people know, and the purpose will be to play songs that my buddy and I grew up with, and love, and doing an awesome party if we get hired to play live.

I think it'll work great.

We have found a kick ass young guitar player. He's a real spring chicken, about 18 years old, but he is DAMN talented. I met him through the Band Creation class that I teach, and there is nothing that I can really teach him. He is super fast, but of course needs some schoolin' as he hasn't really played in a band with "competent folks" before. He's played with kids his own age, kids who is nowhere near his talent, so he's all excited to join.

We just gotta make sure that he wants to dedicate to it, and that we all get along together. He needs some gear too, but we'll look at that over time. I think I have a guitar amp that he could borrow, though I am not sure it's loud enough. Playing with my friend on the drums, it's gonna be FRICKIN' LOUD. I can't say I have a problem with that. :)

I do love to play music loud - even if it means that everyone has to use earplugs. Turning it down is not really an option when you play with a drummer who is using a real acoustic drum kit. Then we simply need to follow his level.

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I am really tired today. I sleep really bad, I was so uncomfortable. It was hot in the bedroom, so we had the windows open. We live VERY close to the peer, maybe 150 yards, and the seagulls were driving us crazy. They are SO loud. They remind me of the seagulls in "Finding Nemo". I think it's a VERY accurate description of them.

Then, because I feel more bloated, I was uncomfortable with that. It feels like I am sleeping in a water balloon. The girdle just makes it even more uncomfortable. :/

So I think all in all I am functioning on 2-3 hours of sleep. I will definitely squeeze in a nap throughout the day. Trouble is that I suck at naps. Usually a nap for me ends up being me lying in bed for an hour, annoyed that I can't fall asleep. Hopefully it'll be different today.

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I know I sound nagging (again) today. Sorry about that. I do actually feel pretty okay, the things that bug me are minor things, but they bug me a lot. I think it's the curse of having not a whole lot to do. You mind takes over, and you think things through a little too much.

When I look back. I see major progress, I see that I am way more flexible, I see that I am slowly healing. Trouble is, this doesn't really register with me - but the fluids do. That is all I see and feel. I will call the doc and check that it's okay, and then try to do as we agree and just move on from it. I gotta trust that she knows what she is doing and that what she is telling me is right. I do want to double check, because she assumed that the swelling would be down significantly by today, and it's not. So I need to know if this is a game changer, or if we just keep going.

Today, I am thankful for:

- The excitement of finding music for a new band.
- Coffee - boy do I need it today.
- Weekend! Wife is out from work early, and we have days to spend together. Less boring days for me! YaaaaY!

Happy Friday! Enjoy your weekend, friends!

Life is good!
183.6 lb Lost so far: 158.1 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed 100%.
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Hope you can get in contact with your doc soon to ease your concerns! Congrats on your.. seeping... !! :) and on the new bands - sounds like fun! 
05 Jul 12 by member: erika2633
Greetings! You do sound a bit discouraged that this process is not happening on YOUR timetable. You are doing well, and you will heal properly in time. Relax, listen to music, write music, enjoy your rest! Soon enough, you will be back at the grind wishing for a day at home!  
05 Jul 12 by member: HCB
Your new bands sound great. Congrats on spring that young new guitar player. Definitely get in touch with the doc, buy a couple more pairs of pants, even if they are only transitional and listen to your wife about the weighing. Right now it's time fr you to just recover. 
06 Jul 12 by member: Helewis
I'm concerned that you say the drainage smells so bad. What color is it? Be sure you tell these things to the doctor.  
06 Jul 12 by member: Baxie
Baxie, the ooze is a nice, chocolate color, just as described by the doctors. It's not infection, I am very certain. I have no other signs of infection of any kind. No redness, no fever, no discomfort. But I am sure that "dead goo" that is trapped under the skin will have a certain, ahem, "aroma" to it. :) This I am not at all worried about. What comes out is a few drops per day, not enough to drain anything, but still a little.  
06 Jul 12 by member: kingkeld
I hope the 'seeping' and your conversation with the doc goes ok.... Does ALL that fluid need to ooze out? Or does it dissipate somehow? 
06 Jul 12 by member: Sk1nnyfuture
SkInny, it should dissipate on its own, mostly. I can tell that my fluid level is coming up significantly though, or at least something is changing. I am back to the Deep Purple syndrome, somewhat. :/ It hurts like a mother. Way to ruin my weekend. :/ 
06 Jul 12 by member: kingkeld
Hey Keld, you kinda knew in general this was going to take all summer to heal..be patient, and diligent to communicate w/ your doctors! Sorry you are going thru all of this, but in the end I am sure you will find it to be WORTH IT!!! (judging by your early pics!) Keep the faith, man! 
06 Jul 12 by member: jsfantome
Deep Purple syndrome.... Not like the band LOL... Sorry, shouldn't jest - but when I read those words, I immediately thought of the band :-) 
06 Jul 12 by member: Sk1nnyfuture
The Deep Purple is definitely also referring to the band... :-)  
06 Jul 12 by member: kingkeld
Js, I know you are right. It will take time. I'm just SO impatient... I think my biggest issue is that I used to have something close to total control, and now I don't.... - and today has been together on me - even more than usual.  
06 Jul 12 by member: kingkeld
... meant to write "tough on me"...  
06 Jul 12 by member: kingkeld
Ok, y'all made me giggle, and gross out at the same time. And I have an iron stomach, too! The oozing, seeping, draining... the 'Deep Purple' was funny! I'm not a fan of that band, but they had a couple I can listen to without immediately changing the track or channel. Keld.. you're doing well by keeping in contact with your doc. If there weren't going to be side effects, well, that would be just TOO perfect. Question though... do you have an easy chair or recliner of some sort that you might be able to sleep in? It might help in the comfort level to not be lying down. And they're right--PATIENCE my friend. You got thru the surgery, and it's been only 3 weeks of recovery. Perhaps the exercise has over exerted the wound a bit? Ease up, maybe just walk for 30 min or so when you DO go, and be sure to keep chugging the H2O. That will help your bod flush it all out, too. If you can't move around as much, maybe drop 100 or so calories until you CAN move more freely, or at least the more sodium-laden food and seasonings. This too shall pass... You gotta give up a TEENY bit of control to your healing body!! and Let M take care of you... 
06 Jul 12 by member: ZippyDani
I hear you pal, although my reasons aren't the same as yours. I am not watching what I eat like I should, and I am unable to bike ride like I wanna. Grr. So frustrating. Anyway, hang in there dude, your body is still going through changes (As Ozzy would say). Once you get back into a groove or routine it will all make more sense. Plus your activity levels are all whack sittin around the house all day. No worries mate, this too shall pass.  
06 Jul 12 by member: posterchild66

     
 

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