SkellyJackson's Journal, 20 April 2018

To fix the technical problems, I'm using notes to record journal entered and copying and pasting it to FS :)

Still doing well! Fasting, that is. Still drinking a lot of coffee and also I had some broth today as well. I'm not going to lie I'm a little excited that it's Friday, so only one more day of fasting before I weigh myself and break the fast.

I've been really stressed lately... I'm so glad that it's not negatively effecting my eating habits, as I tend to binge when I'm stressed (I think now it's just when I'm sleepy), but I'm trying to learn healthier ways of coping with stress. Ones I like are: incense, tea/coffee (decaf if needed), hot broth, a warm sweater, lotion/smelly candle, emailing people, talking to people, sleep...

Lately I just don't know what to feel. I'm going through stress of having to come out as gay to my father between now and August when I leave for college. (Actually, my mother is coming out for me. I think she assumes he'll need some time to process. So I don't know when and I'm anxiously waiting.). I recently came out to my pastor at church and the amount of support and love she has to me and the encouragement she's giving me to accept myself... That amount of kindness makes me realize how little kindness I have towards myself. It's almost surprising to have someone be so kind to me, and it's just an odd feeling to feel so undeserving. And yet, I'm better than I have been concerning the topic of LGBT+...

Sorry to post about such a controversial topic... I hope everyone's having a good day/night/morning!

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Be proud of who you are! Sorry you're so stressed, but know that you are worthy of as much love as anyone. Good luck to you ❤️ 
20 Apr 18 by member: jenniferl12003
Thank you!! 😊 
21 Apr 18 by member: SkellyJackson


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