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I had a bunch of NSV's yesterday!
1~ I was able to go to the grocery store by myself without having a HUGE anxiety attack. THIS one is really big because for over 3 years I was so scared to go by myself. I know it prob sounds stupid to most, but i was suffereing from extreme anxiety and basically locked myself in the house, and when I DID leave I had to have my GF with me. Going to the store always upset me because i thought people were always staring at me because I was so freaking fat. ANYway, I DID IT and it felt GOOD.
2~ the towel i used after my shower went ALL the way around me...granted it was a big bath towel, BUT this was the first time it weant all the way around without ANY gaps. It felt good.
3~ We went to Pridefest yesterday and I felt PRETTY. It didn't take me 3 hours to get ready because i was crying on my bed because i felt so ugly and fat. I was HAPPY with how I looked. My GF kept telling me how hot I was. It really made me feel GOOD. I wasn't constantly pulling down my shirt or stretching it out because I thought my fat rolls were showing, i didn't want to sit down as soon as we got there....I ENJOYED MYSELF and wasn't self conscious about how I looked. It really felt GREAT!! Ok, just had to share!!!
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