JackieSpahr's Journal, 24 February 2018

Feeling a lot better since I added some calories and upped carbs. Went a bit overboard yesterday but got over the chocolate mousse craze. In fact, I think the other serving is going in the garbage.

Reading over my weight and journal posts I see a disturbing word. STRUGGLE. That should always be a clue for me to know I'm off track. I began this journey knowing that the same principles that I use to stay away from alcohol, turning my will over to my Higher Power, would work for any "ism/aholic" in my life. I turned my foodaholism over to HP and got out of the way. First thing I found this support system. Secondly I found keto. I loved all the butter, cream, mayo, avocado, and other usually controlled foods. Thinking about sugar, pasta, bread was gone. At some point it changed from doing the next right thing to obsessing and struggling. I got weak and dizzy but my keto sticks were a dark magenta so I soldiered on and struggled. It never occurred to me that I had taken back the control and never once meditated for direction. If you're still reading, this is just to say, thank you for being my support and I'm going back to square one. If it's keto, okay. If it's not keto that's okay too. I'm listening for what's the next right thing. Right now I'm going to get the left over tilapia from last night and have some avocado. 😁 Oh, and I've been using Qwest bars for emergency - in the car, starving. I'm gonna look into jerky. Something tells me that may be better for me. Love you all.
164.6 lb Lost so far: 6.4 lb.    Still to go: 19.6 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entry for 24 February 2018:
1481 kcal Fat: 117.78g | Prot: 73.76g | Carb: 60.40g.   Breakfast: Heavy Cream, Coffee, Sugar in the Raw Stevia in the Raw, Quest Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Protein Bar, Allure Splenda Sweetener, Water. Lunch: Poached Egg, Subway Tomatoes, Cooked Spinach (from Fresh), Green Giant Hass Avocado, Coffee, Cream (Half & Half), Sweet'N Low Sweet'n Low, Water. Dinner: Tap Water, Water, Kroger Tilapia Fillets, Land O'Lakes Salted Butter, Green Giant Hass Avocado, Kraft Mayo Real Mayonnaise. Snacks/Other: Heavy Cream, Coffee, Butter, Stevia in The Raw (Packet), Wild Friends Vanilla Espresso Almond Butter, Hershey's Natural Unsweetened Cocoa, Sugar in the Raw Stevia in the Raw, Guerrero Chicharrones (Fried Pork Rinds), Tap Water. more...
on diet LCHF: Low carb, High fat / Ketogenic Diet   gaining 18.2 lb a week

19 Supporters    Support   

No amount of weight loss is worth feeling miserable and sick. You do what you need to do and we will be here to support you. “Life is to be enjoyed, not just endured!” 🙂 
24 Feb 18 by member: momma6224
Thank you, momma. I'm not even losing that much weight.  
24 Feb 18 by member: JackieSpahr
Like l said! Eat,Drink and be Merry! lt will turn around. 
24 Feb 18 by member: murphthesurf
Yep. Whatever WOE wirks for YOUR body Jackie! Doctors and other ‘experts’ are finding out the answers are just as individual as the patient! 🤷🏻‍♀️You may discover that riding a very light keto line works for you. It does modt of the time for me. But I’m also not stressing huge amounts of weight loss as long as I feel better and can stay active. 💁🏻‍♀️You’ll figure it out you are an incredible and intelligent woman! LOL 
24 Feb 18 by member: smprowett
"Obsessing"? Me too! Boy once I recognized my brain was "obsessing" (over anything, fill in the blank) I was able to take back control and tell my brain to stop going round and round over it. I could then consciously make better choices. (My brain gets silly like that sometimes.) 
25 Feb 18 by member: sun24spot


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