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Feeling a lot better since I added some calories and upped carbs. Went a bit overboard yesterday but got over the chocolate mousse craze. In fact, I think the other serving is going in the garbage.
Reading over my weight and journal posts I see a disturbing word. STRUGGLE. That should always be a clue for me to know I'm off track. I began this journey knowing that the same principles that I use to stay away from alcohol, turning my will over to my Higher Power, would work for any "ism/aholic" in my life. I turned my foodaholism over to HP and got out of the way. First thing I found this support system. Secondly I found keto. I loved all the butter, cream, mayo, avocado, and other usually controlled foods. Thinking about sugar, pasta, bread was gone. At some point it changed from doing the next right thing to obsessing and struggling. I got weak and dizzy but my keto sticks were a dark magenta so I soldiered on and struggled. It never occurred to me that I had taken back the control and never once meditated for direction. If you're still reading, this is just to say, thank you for being my support and I'm going back to square one. If it's keto, okay. If it's not keto that's okay too. I'm listening for what's the next right thing. Right now I'm going to get the left over tilapia from last night and have some avocado. 😁 Oh, and I've been using Qwest bars for emergency - in the car, starving. I'm gonna look into jerky. Something tells me that may be better for me. Love you all.
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164.6 lb
Lost so far: 6.4 lb.
Still to go: 19.6 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 24 February 2018:
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1481 kcal
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Fat: 117.78g | Prot: 73.76g | Carb: 60.40g.
Breakfast: Water, Allure Splenda Sweetener, Quest Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Protein Bar, Sugar in the Raw Stevia in the Raw, Coffee, Heavy Cream. Lunch: Water, Sweet'N Low Sweet'n Low, Cream (Half & Half), Coffee, Green Giant Hass Avocado, Cooked Spinach (from Fresh), Subway Tomatoes, Poached Egg. Dinner: Kraft Mayo Real Mayonnaise, Green Giant Hass Avocado, Land O'Lakes Salted Butter, Kroger Tilapia Fillets, Water, Tap Water. Snacks/Other: Tap Water, Guerrero Chicharrones (Fried Pork Rinds), Sugar in the Raw Stevia in the Raw, Hershey's Natural Unsweetened Cocoa, Wild Friends Vanilla Espresso Almond Butter, Stevia in The Raw (Packet), Butter, Coffee, Heavy Cream. more...
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gaining 18.2 lb a week
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