Tachatna's Journal, 19 February 2018

It is amazing what my mind has done for so many years and not come up with "healthy".

When the doctor told me years ago that I had fatty liver and suggested altering my diet, etc., I told myself, "I'm not that heavy! How does he know my liver is fatty or not?". I dismissed it.

When the doctor told me my cholesterol and triglycerides were too high and I needed to change my diet, I told myself, "Ahhh...that's what pills are for! Why change my diet when I can take a little pill once a day?".

When my jeans were too tight, I started wearing sweatpants. I told myself, "It's cold in Alaska! Sweatpants are practical!"

When I got rid of the full length mirrors in the house, I told myself, "Those cheap mirrors are always distorted. That isn't what I really look like!".

When my chin started looking double, I told myself, "Ahh...bad genes! You are starting to look like your mother!" and quickly started wearing turtlenecks or mock turtle necks to hide it.

When I started looking ONLY at my eyes when I was putting on mascara; only at my brows when I was shaping them; only at my teeth when I was brushing them; only at my hair when I was doing it...I told myself, "Why look at your whole face when you're only dealing with part of it?".

When I refused to let anyone take a picture of me, that should have told me that I needed to do something about my weight. Instead, I just told myself, "Who needs a picture of me anyway? There is nothing special about me to commemorate!" rather than being honest with myself about WHY I didn't like to see myself in photos.

When a new doctor asked me how I felt about having gastric bypass, I told myself, "What? Me?".

Being honest with yourself is a MUST! I think I've finally learned that!

Diet Calendar Entry for 19 February 2018:
936 kcal Fat: 52.35g | Prot: 73.15g | Carb: 45.74g.   Lunch: Skinless Chicken Breast. Dinner: Chicken Breast, Tomatoes, Lettuce, Lettuce, Crystal Farms Shredded Cheddar Cheese, Hidden Valley Ranch Salad Dressing, Hidden Valley Ranch Salad Dressing. Snacks/Other: Popsicle (Sugar Free), Popsicle (Sugar Free), Glucerna Rich Chocolate Shake. more...
on diet Tachatna's own diet  

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Great insight 
19 Feb 18 by member: ClarityAnn
You're absolutely right. I think we've all been in denial like that at some point, but it's so brilliant to see you how you've put it in words. Great journal, Tachatna! 
20 Feb 18 by member: Doobrie


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