kingkeld's Journal, 16 May 2012

It's an early morning at the king's mansion - which is in reality a nice apartment.

It's 3:45,and I decided to get up and get on the bike. I couldn't sleep any more, but not because of stress. I feel pretty rested and what was really on my mind when I woke up was my bike calling. I think I felt bad about skipping it yesterday, but my legs really appreciated the break.

I did an early weigh in, and it seems I gained 500 grams since yesterday. That's okay. I've lost several kgs since Friday, so it had to even out a little sooner or later. I still hope to reach the 77's by Saturday morning, but of course I'm now a little further away from that goal. I'll simply keep doing what I'm doing.

Yesterday, I ended up having consumed a total of 1000 calories. It's still a little too low, but I feel that I eat what my body wants and needs, I simply don't eat the snacks that I no longer have an urge for. I don't really want to eat things that my body doesn't feel like, just to add calories. I try to add tiny things, like a slice of cheese with my breakfast, but I don't feel that I need it, and then I don't really want it. I have no urge. I try to listen to what my body tells me that I need to eat, and I will eat accordingly. The food is in no way different from what we normally eat, but I can tell that I'm a little more specific when Wife is asking me if I want something in particular for dinner. Before, I'd mostly let it be up to her, but now I often express a wish for something to be incorporated, like carrots, vegetables, chicken or something else. Nothing weird so far, which I guess means that we're eating fairly balanced already.

Yesterday's snacks amounted to a whopping 5 calories. I had a quarter of the jello ii have sitting in the fridge. I could have skipped it without a hitch, but I felt like something sweet and flavorful, and it fully did the trick. I had most of it, but didn't finish my little portion.

The McKenna show suggests that you make it a habit to leave some food on your plate when you eat. The point to this is to "cancel your membership with The Clean Plate Club". When we reprogram ourselves to have healthier eating habits, we need to NOT obsess about finishing out meals. We need to simply eat until we are flu or satisfied, not until we're out of food. This makes perfect sense to me. I thinks it's also a way to signal to our inner caveman that we have plenty of food, enough to throw some away, and that there is no need to hold on to those extra kgs.

The first days it was a little hard to of this, to be honest. However, I remember to do this by far the most of the time, and it's actually a good feeling doing it. It gives a feeling of accomplishment, that you're in control. It shows that you're in control of your food and that nobody else can dictate how much you eat. Use it to your advantage.

I gotta say that I really, truly enjoy having entered the more psychological journey losing weight. In many, probably most, ways I'm not doing anything different. I'm eating well and I'm exercising. I'm counting calories. However, this part of my new journey really gives me confidence that there is hope for permanent maintenance, without counting calories. Without self help groups like Fatsecret. The ultimate goal has to be to simply live a normal life, in control, doing things right. Right?

Don't worry, I'm not about to leave Fatsecret. I just think that sooner or later I'll be NOT counting calories obsessively, but simply having a firm grip on my food intake. Simply doing right. These last days, I've simply had the portions of food that I wanted, without regards to how many calories were in them. Then, to remain in control, I have added them to my food diary. So what I see in there since Friday is a true representation of my food intake without regards to calories. I'm thinking, that if I end at 1000 calories on average per day, it should not be too hard to stay under the 2700 that I'm supposedly allowed during maintenance. Then I can basically stop counting calories, do good on my food choices, and weigh myself on a regular basis to keep myself in check. I can then refcos on Fatsecret and people in my local area and start paying it forward in terms of weight loss support.

It's given me great pride through this journey to realize that I can actually make a difference for people. That I can help someone losing weight, when just two years ago I had not been able to accomplish this. It's been a completely life changing experience to discover this, lose the weight and get the enjoyment of doing this. I love it.

It's something that I see myself doing for all future.

Anyways, it's time to get going. I hear wife getting up, and I'm done on the bike for now. I managed 45 minutes. I'd do the last 15, but my legs are kindly asking me not to. I'll let them rest, go shower and get going on this wonderful Wednesday.

Today I'm thankful for :
- four day weekend coming up!
- getting up early to exercise.
- a great, positive outlook on things.
- a shower in a minute, then breakfast with Wife.

Indeed, life is good!

173.1 lb Lost so far: 168.7 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed 100%.

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1307 kcal

Fat: 48.69g | Prot: 92.63g | Carb: 118.88g.   Breakfast: Rye Bread, Sliced Ham (Extra Lean), Gouda Cheese, Egg. Lunch: Egg, White Potatoes (Flesh and Skin), Onions, Carrots, Pork Chop. Dinner: soy sauce, oil, eggs, White Rice (Long-Grain, Cooked), chicken breast. more...

2954 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Bicycling (slow) - 11/mph - 50 minutes, Standing - 1 hour, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 20 minutes, Sleeping - 7 hours and 10 minutes, Sitting - 7 hours and 10 minutes, Desk Work - 7 hours and 30 minutes. more...