sjojos89's Journal, 26 April 2012

OK miss 134! You are so small anyway... but it is so hard to lose or stay disciplined... I would love to be at 134 I am jealous! :-)  

I hear ya... And you're right, you've got a lot going on. Maybe you and the BF can talk about your goals and work together, he can help you with the discipline? It seems like he influences you a lot to have the bar food and drinks. Just an idea?  

I know your struggles! But it's important to remember that every little bit counts. Don't have the mind set that it's all or nothing. Say to yourself, OK I might not be 100% in the game right now, but I'll still make good choices here and there until I'm more focused. When I did Insanity, I was frustrated with myself too-because I wasn't disciplined enough to follow the plan exactly. But doing it here and there on my own schedule was still huge progress. Sometimes we are somply more motivated/have more time to spend working on it but don't give up. Give yourself some time and you'll get back into it hardcore when you are ready.  

somply=simply. hehe 

I am with you 100%. Where can we find this discipline I see so many others having? I had it 4 years ago. How did I do? 

Haley- lol thanks. It's not all about the weight. It's the guilt, the no control, the mental stuff. I keep telling myself that I'll get better and someday be confident and happy with my body. BKeller- Trust me, I have discussed my goals with him and he acts like he's on the same page, but actions speak louder than words. Lindsay- If I were to do Insanity here and there it def. would help, but I can't wait til I can didicate myself to it hardcore. Jess- When you find the discipline, pass it my way lol On a side note-One time I got up to 140, shortly after I started my desk job plus I was drinking a lot. I looked bad, you could see it in my face, arms, tummy, and thighs. But this past time I was 140, the weight was distributed differently since I had built muscle at the gym so I didn't look near as bad. I've lost about 5 lbs so far and I just want to eat right and quit feeling guilty. I want to get toned, healthy, and confident.