NanaKP's Journal, 24 November 2017

Sorry I didn't get in to wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving but as usual Murphy's law has grabbed hold of me and won't let go. Ernie is home so less stressful driving. He seems to need more care than I am able to give him, and he doesn't seem to get it even when I tell him. This week my daughter called to say that she was stuck in freeway traffic and trying to get to the hospital because her boyfriend's mother had called to say that bf was getting worse and needed her. She was very distraught and of course when she finally got to the hospital, hung up. She finally called back at midnight saying he had died about ten. Obviously I had been worrying for hours by then. She still had an hour drive home so of course I again was waiting stressfully waiting for her to call from there. The Wednesday we got a call saying that she was waiting for the sheriff because her son had been beaten up while walking home. She has dialed 911 but was told that since the perpatrators were no longer there it wasn't an emergency and she should call her local sheriff. Of course the local sheriff's office is closed at night but dispatch gave her the number to call. It had been an hour since she called them when she called me. She needed to get son to hospital and was now stuck waiting for sheriff. I told her to call them back and ask them if they wanted to meet her at the hospital (not close by). They took the report over the phone so she could go. Of course that initialed another hurry up and wait game. Finally heard from her that CTscan showed no concussion or broken bones. There had been concern about the nose and orbital bone. Thus started Thanksgiving. Not only did she need to prepare the Turkey and fixings, but since Ern's foot still needs daily dressing changes, the doctor's have asked her to do the days that wound care people are unavailable. I am just not qualified to do the in-depth care that is needed. Not to mention, it Skeves (spelling) me and I don't want to do it. These are my reasons (excuses) for not journaling. I have still been posting my food intake and keeping it pretty much on track. The scale shows a 1.5 kg gain but I'm not concerned. Thanksgiving was great and I ate a little bit of everything except for the Turkey which I kept gobbling up. About 8 oz. I even had some pumpkin pie. According to my continuous glucose meter, my sugar was about 129 all night so I guess I did a great job even with the joy I got from all the goodies. Patting self on back now that i can finally reach it. We also got to daughter's early yesterday because Ern was having trouble breathing. Bet sometimes she is sorry she is a nurse. Anyway breathing was fine when we got there. Unfortunately last night his breathing was restricted again. I gave up this morning. Told him he was an adult and I'm trusting he will tell me what he wants me to do. Choices are call 911, drive him to ER, or other. So far his choice has been to do nothing. I did talk him into calling his quack's office but of course got the recording that they were closed and call 911 if an emergency. I would call this at least urgent but i have bowed out telling Ern I don't have the ability to deal with this stress and I will not take the guilt of he ends up in real trouble. I didn't make it to breakfast today because the wound specialist was here. This is my confession of the day. I ate a vanilla creme horn that has been calling me for a week. We have no protein here but cheese and i have been over cheesing for days. Im not even sure if we have pans here and too lazy to look or cook, or i would have grilled the cheèse. Lunch is fish (which i love) but I won't be back from taking Ern to dialysis in time. That leaves me with the fast food option or stopping at the grocery. I need to make Ern pb&j to take to dialysis but I really have been trying to eat no bread. Am I whining again? Oh well! Hope everyone has a good day.

Diet Calendar Entry for 24 November 2017:
1352 kcal Fat: 76.47g | Prot: 68.74g | Carb: 103.48g.   Breakfast: Wal-Mart Vanilla Creme Horn. Lunch: Tilapia (Fish), Rice Pilaf, Dinner Rolls, Land O'Lakes Whipped Butter Salted. Dinner: White Bread, Deli Sliced Ham, Market Pantry Swiss Deli-Style Cheese Slices, Chocolate Chip Cookies (Soft Type). Snacks/Other: Dare Cabaret Crisp & Buttery Crackers, Great Value Swiss Cheese, Hormel Original Pepperoni Slices. more...
on diet NanaKP's own diet  

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Oh Nana my heart goes out to you, your daughter and family. I Pray that peace finds you all 🙏 
24 Nov 17 by member: 8Patty
Sending love and strength to you! 
24 Nov 17 by member: mamamc7
Hoping your stress levels come down soon. Sometimes it's difficult to let someone else be responsible for their own decisions... especially if we don't agree. I've been through that. My husband died of a massive heart attack 30 days after his 50th birthday. Years of my begging and pleading for him to go to the doctor and not ignore what he was saying were useless. LONG family history of heart issues. My prayers are with you and your family for a resolution to the issues. Blessings. 
24 Nov 17 by member: Happy*Snappy


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