mskestrela's Journal, 20 September 2017

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How can I feel like I've done nothing but eat all day, and only have consumed 565 calories?????
Yeah, I'm very used to OMAD, and my appetite is constricted by the keto phenomenon. So when I eat 2 meals a day and feel stuffed to the gills at the end of the day, how is it possible? This is a new, or not-so-new, challenge in the keto lifestyle. I admit that after the last week of unrestrained carb consumption, everything I *want* is pasta, bread, and 'bad' carbs. Probably not helped by watching food vloggers abroad who eat massive amounts of noodles and diverse breads.
It's not fair. These are young, skinny guys who can consume huge amounts of bready, starchy, carby foods. One day of baguette for me results in 5 pounds of puffy, achey, depressed gain. IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!
So here I sit, feeling stuffed by a lettuce salad topped with tuna salad, resenting the people who can stuff themselves with pretzels, pita, naan, and bhan mi, watching earthquakes, hurricanes, and genocide...and wondering what is the point?
Nobody really cares what I look like. I certainly don't. I'm 61. My chances of attracting a 'mate' are slim to none.
This is what happens when I have too much time to myself. No work, money worries, wondering what the hell happened to my life.
BUT...today has been a busy day. A client I haven't heard from in 2 years booked today. Several others have booked online for the weekend. The end of the week will be busy. And next week will be, as previously mentioned, absolutely slammed.
I'm an introvert, a social loner. I like people, but in short doses. Too much time on my own leads to too much deep thinking. It's a delicate balance.
On another note, has anyone noticed that the hurricanes bedeviling the US/Caribbean are named for Joseph and Mary? There are apocalyptic predictions for this month, based on the Bible...just another introvert thought.
Good night, Followers.
~Kes

Diet Calendar Entries for 20 September 2017:

565 kcal

Fat: 41.04g | Prot: 29.11g | Carb: 14.85g. Breakfast: French's Classic Yellow Mustard, Boar's Head Liverwurst, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Pyure Stevia Sweetener, Half and Half Cream. Lunch: Egg Drop Soup. Dinner: Makoto Ginger Salad Dressing, Marketside Classic Iceberg Salad, Trader Joe's Tuna Salad. more...

2600 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Showering - 8 minutes, Housework - 20 minutes, Watching TV/Computer - 9 hours, Washing Dishes - 30 minutes, Cooking - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 5 hours and 32 minutes. more...

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Oh dear... you need to binge watch something like Monk. I think you need the Hallmark Channel. You can watch the Rockford Files everyday at noon I think. I definitely resent anyone who can eat a good pizza without getting sick. I care what you look like and feel like because the two are connected. I'm 65-- no mate and used to it. In fact, I shudder to think of living with anyone but my Shelties or one of my godchildren who have a tendency to show up now and then. Nevertheless, I feel so much better at 151 than I felt at 234. I have so much more energy to do the things I want to do. The no work-no-money thing gets to me, too. But I'm hanging in there and I know you will too. Better get out and take a walk or a bike ride or something that clears you head. And don't watch any apocalyptic movies or tv series.

20 Sep 17 by member: Hermiones Mom

Sure hope you soon get out of that frame of mine, Kes. It makes me sad to see you writing like that 😢. Hope being busy will make you feel better. Less time to look at the news, etc. Have a better day today x

21 Sep 17 by member: Doobrie

Sorry to hear you're feeling low. The state of the world can seem pretty bleak, I agree, but Hermiones Mom has some good advice. One thing that works for me is to avoid flicking back and forth on the telly and the Internet. It just makes me feel worse and guilty because all I've done is waste time. The very best thing, if the weather permits, is getting outside in the garden or going for a walk. Hope you start to find some joy soon. Getting back to work and meeting other people will help too.

21 Sep 17 by member: Snoop Puss

Wishing you side happiness and peace Kes. Some outdoors and movement may do the trick

21 Sep 17 by member: chesgreen

Some guys in my office think your "HOT" So they don't see a problem. Now I have to read them your journals everyday, as they think you are comical .. Maybe you are getting a cult following and just don't know it ?? I have a slogan on my desk the reads ".If you always do what you always did, You always get what you always got " . Maybe time to step on a new box , instead of outside the box !! And your journey goes on !!Have a good one today and everyday !!

21 Sep 17 by member: DO N OK

awww so sorry to hear of your struggles. I am nearly 50 and i know my body HATES carbs...all the yummy stuff that i LOVE LOVE LOVE. I get my balance by running on the trails in the woods....I get my quiet time and my happiness by being in nature while getting exercise at the same time. 'Even if you cant run taking a walk in a park or along the water can relieve alot of mental strife. Your message is low and sad but i see a glimmer of gratitude over your clients - expand that feeling of gratitude and i promise it will help lift you up even a wee bit. I literally have to sometimes just say "i am grateful for my comfy couch, I am grateful for 2 eyes to see....simple stuff but darn it works! Big hugs to you and try a walk - 10 minutes may help HUGS!!!!

21 Sep 17 by member: runrgrrll


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