I guess today's weight gain is from the impromptu (and very forbidden, but oh, so tasty) Indulgence Day on Wednesday. It's not unusual to see a two day weight gain on something like this, and boy did I go nuts. Oh well.
I am up a good chunk again, to 78.8 kgs. In the big picture, it's really not too bad as long as it stops here. I'm well under 80, and I can creep back to 77 soon again. I do miss the stability around 77 kgs. I don't feel that I have really found it yet, and have only been UNDER 77 for one single day. Hopefully I will get there soon, and stay there.
It's quite a task to get that low, I gotta say. I think my body is more or less comfortable where I am now, and the excess skin of course weighs quite a bit, weighing me down. If you see my upper body, you'd be surprised how skinny I am, other than the loose skin. It's borderline creepy for me to look at sometimes.
I can feel my ribs. In detail. I can see all the veins in my hands. I can grab my Adam's apple. I can see the muscle toning in hands, arms, legs etc.
Now, this is not complaining. Actually, I think it's pretty cool, but it's so otherworldly for me sometimes. I still have to get used to the new guy in the mirror.
Anyways, on towards 77 again. Today my breakfast was the usual, and lunch will be leftovers, as usual. Yesterday, we had cod fish in a mustard sauce - REALLY delicious. The King took over the kitchen and did this dish. It's actually a traditional new year's eve dish in Denmark, but I haven't had it in about a decade. I think last time was the 1999/2000 New Year's Eve.
Regardless, it's not something I want to eat every day, but Wife bought cod and I thought it'd be fun to introduce her to this dish. She liked it, but as expected it isn't something we're gonna cook on a weekly basis. That's okay with me.
Today, it's Friday! This means a shorter work day - though I have a LOT to do. I have things that needs to be finished very soon, and I will focus on those today. I also have one interview - no biggie.
I may have to work some hours through the weekend to catch up - we'll see how far I make it today. Hopefully I can take the time off. I think I deserve it.
I got a message that there is mail waiting for me at the post office. I think my ice cream maker is in! I will stop by today to pick it up - let's hope that this is the one. I'm curious to get started making my own ice cream, and getting started developing a good, low calorie version. It's a good thing that the bowls needed has to freeze 24 hours before use, this way it limits the "going nuts factor" for me. :) Still, low cal ice cream here in Denmark is ridiculously expensive.
Does anyone have any good recipes for this? I'm not even sure how to approach it, but hopefully I'll work it out. I know my buddy JP is on this same mission, and it'd be great if anyone has some experience to share.
Of course, the alternative is to instead make PROPER ice cream, and just not go nuts in it. But this is where things get tricky sometimes. The good stuff gives me an urge for more, and I don't want that. I want "good enough" to be satisfying, low calorie, cheaper than what I can buy. It doesn't have to be amazing, just good enough for me to survive on. Actually, sometimes this makes it a little bit easier, doesn't it? :) I mean, it's easier to say no to a 2nd helping of something "good enough" than it is to say no to something amazing! :)
Tonight there is no band rehearsal. This is no good for me, I miss playing with the band. It's the 2nd Friday in a row where it's canceled. I am so looking forward to next week and getting going again.
Also, it's not good as I normally lose quite a bit of weight after band rehearsals. I do things differently, and I see results. I've tried to copy it at home, but it just doesn't happen the same way.
Had it been a "normal" friday, I'd be positive about being under 77 or just around by tomorrow. I've done it many times before, losing 3 lbs overnight from Friday to Saturday. This week I doubt it.
Still, I am no longer in a rush to get anywhere, other than to stay where I am. I need to get used to this new mindset. I think I mentally still look for 77, and that's not a bad thing at all, I just gotta remember that it's okay that I am not 100% there, as long as I don't gain over and over. I'm comfortable with being 78.8 today, very happy to not be in the 80's.
Today, I am thankful for:
- NOT being in the 80's. :)
- Friday.
- Package in the mail.
- Getting to spend the evening with Wife, now that I am not playing music tonight.
- Amazing and insightful comments in yesterday's journal. Thanks!
Enjoy your friday! To something for yourself today. Make yourself happy. Life is good!
