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Well, I am still at 90.4 kgs. Hmmmm... I was hoping to start dropping weight today, but I guess I'll have to wait a little longer. Hopefully things will start happening tomorrow.
It's interesting, because my smart, smart scale tells me that I am at an all-time low on my fat percentage - it claims I am at 15.6% and a visceral fat percentage of 10. Those are pretty good numbers - normally the first is around 17-19 and the second is 11. So things are happening "behind the scenes", even when I am not losing weight. I think my food yesterday was probably too salty, and that's what's holding on to the water.
These last days I have been working hard on catching up at work, and it pays off mentally. I feel better, though I also feel kinda stressed out from the extra work.
I interview a lot of people in my job, and I have to do follow up journals afterwards, with a lot of other tasks. Case working, I guess you can call it. I am trying to make it my mission to be 100% on top of it (and that can be quite a challenge!) to avoid things piling up. Every day I will do at least the work I have generated, and then some.
LOL, it sounds like I have piles and piles to do, I really don't. I just have a few things that are bothering me that I can't get to do. They will be my first priority to get done, after the day's work.
Today I am going to the doc for those measurements, and to see what the next step is towards the skin removal surgery. I am so curious to know how long time he will put me on "probation" before I have proven that I won't gain weight back? I hope not too long, but of course I see the point to doing it.
I myself haven't tried to maintain weight before, but I don't think it's gonna be that hard. My plan is to simply do what I am already doing - only change my RDI accordingly. I don't think of my weight loss journey to ever be done. I see it as a complete change of habits. I think that's why I have such trouble answering that question I get so often about how much more I want to lose.
I am told constantly that I should stop now or very soon, and that I look good the way I am now. I am not sure. I think part of me wants to go and start maintaining, part wants to get to the 77 kgs (which still seems too low) to get to the "normal" BMI, just to prove a point, and part of me probably can't let go of losing weight because I have always been fat and had needed to lose weight - and finally being able to say I am done is simply not something I can comprehend.
And of course, then after I stop losing and start maintaining, then what? I have done this for a year and then some, and it has filled my every day with so many things. So much to do, so much to think of. Will that change? There are so many questions I keep asking myself about this. Just because I am "done" doesn't mean I am done. I think it will always feel like I am doing what I am doing now. And I kinda like that.
Anyways, gotta get going, folks. It's Tuesday. Not a day for rock'n'roll, as the kids are off on fall break this week. So hopefully it's a day of doing other fun stuff, and maybe get some extra sleep. :)
Life is good!
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