HerStrawberri's Journal, 19 September 2011

Holy bad food weekend. I got my TOM and boy did it take over. Saturday I had a Spiced Pumpkin frappe from Starbucks, half of a bun with my chicken sammy, a few fries, some snack size candy bars, AND some mashed potatoes WITH gravy, on top of the food I CAN eat, chicken, salsbury steak, and this chocolate cream pie thing.....i think that's it. OMG. Yesterday I had most of a sausage egg and cheese mcgriddle, honey BBQ chicken fingers and 3 more snack size candy bars. For ME, that's ALOT of CRAP. I'm paying for it though. My stomach is in terrible shape and has been most of the weekend. I'm not even getting close to the scale. i will prob have a heart attack. I'm really bloated anyway, so the scale is off limits until at least Tuesday or Wednesday. So much for reaching the bigg 299 anytime soon. =(

I'm not that upset about it. I'm more upset about how my stomach feels and that I let myself lose control like that. I guess maybe it wasn't losing control because i was very aaware of what i was eating. So maybe I really DIDN'T care?? I'm totally BACK on the wagon and will remain in it's safety for a long time. =)

I put down all of my food because I haven't entered it into my food calender but need to be accountable. I will be putting it int here at some point today. I'm a firm believer in putting ALL FOOD EATEN in your food calendar. You need to be accountable for what you eat. I need to be accountable for what I eat.

My weekend was good otherwise. Spent lots of great time with my GF. We are getting our house in order for my dad. he is coming to live with us in 2 weeks. I'm sure i will have lots to say about that after ot happens.

That's all I have. Hope everyone has a great day!

Diet Calendar Entries for 19 September 2011:
1008 kcal Fat: 49.05g | Prot: 87.80g | Carb: 44.47g.   Breakfast: Turkey Sausage Patties, Medium Eggs, IMPRL DELIGHT QTRS. Dinner: Heinz Ketchup, land o lakes butter, potato, beef tenderloin. more...
3344 kcal Activities & Exercise: Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...


You will still reach 299 soon! That one day/weekend won't stick too long, as long as you get back on track. I'm back on it today, with my low carb experiment. ;) Three weeks of crap eating, yep, still showing a 15 lb gain. :/ I eat CRAZY with the amounts and quality when I'm bad. Blah. Have a great day sweetie! 
19 Sep 11 by member: kcook323
Hun, remember 1 weekend... not the end of the word - I am sure your body feels differently but I know you will get back down. I had a really nasty weekend too but I figured if I jump back on now things will be OK. 
19 Sep 11 by member: pixidaisy
Thanks Kendra! I rwad your prev journals about going low carb. It will be hard the forst week or so but then your body should start feeling better. I hope you find it works well for you! Pixi, I know it's only one weekend. But as the day progresses I'm feeling worse about it. I know it's totally stupid, it's NOT like I'm going to gain back 70 lbs in 2 days of bad eating. I swear, though, when i got ready for school my face looked way fatter. LOL. It's crazy the tricks our minds can play. I hope you had a great weekend with your dads bday. I think it was your dads bday. I feel so out of touch lately, cuz I have missed so many journals. Anyway, thank you both! This to shall pass. =) 
19 Sep 11 by member: HerStrawberri
It was my dad (well step dad's) birthday party and it was great! I am feeling way fatter today too but mines bloat and TOM and all that great stuff! 
19 Sep 11 by member: pixidaisy
Mine is as well, on top of massive amounts of sugar. BUT it was YUM! I hope your dad had a great bday! 
19 Sep 11 by member: HerStrawberri
"Part of abandoning the all-or-nothing mentality is allowing yourself room for setbacks. We are bound to have lapses on the road to health & wellness, but it is critical that we learn how to handle small failures positively so that we can minimize their long-term destructive effects. One setback is one setback - not the end of the world, nor is it the end of your journey toward a better you" ~Jillian Michaels 
19 Sep 11 by member: NoChubbyMom
Thanks! That helped me today! 
19 Sep 11 by member: gliattitd
Thank you Shanna! That was great! =) 
19 Sep 11 by member: HerStrawberri
You've got this hun! 299 will show up soon and it will be wonderful! Awesome quote! :) 
19 Sep 11 by member: melmi20
Dawn, I apologize in advance because your journal is probably not the place for this, but I am not a JM fan & that quote pretty much reinforces my opinion of her (nothing personal, Shanna). Why should off-plan eating for a limited period of time - ESPECIALLY if it was enjoyable - be considered a setback or failure? That implies doing it the "right" way is eating on-plan all the time & I doubt there is anyone in the world who got through their entire weight loss eating completely on-plan. Those with a lot of weight to lose like us are gonna be at it for a LONG EFFEN TIME. If you work hard at it during the week then indulge on 1 or 2 days over the weekend, why should that be considered a setback or failure? Why should there be anything remotely resembling guilt associated with it at all? I work full time at my job, 40 hours a week. I don't work at all over the weekends. Is that considered a setback or failure because I don't? My boss doesn't seem to think so, & neither do I. Ok, rant over. 
19 Sep 11 by member: kstubblefield
I guess what I'm really getting at is that you can either forgive yourself for "being bad" or you can view the off-plan eating as a little break & treat or reward (yes, I said it) for your hard work. It doesn't cancel out any of the hard work you've done so far. It's a balance that allows you to still enjoy your life while you lose weight as long as you limit the frequency & duration of the off-plan eating. You're doing great!! 
19 Sep 11 by member: kstubblefield
I have actually removed the world failure from my diet dictionary... I figured if I induldge 1 - 2 days every now and then its not gonna kill me.. 1 - 2 days is not how I gained an extra 100 pounds to start with. Its the long term that I look at.. and I live by the 80% rule - if I can behave myself 80% of the time (and by behave I mean staying with in my carb limits, and eating real food) than that 20% of the time I don't will be OK.. you know?  
19 Sep 11 by member: pixidaisy
it's not the fall, it's how you get up from it. good job coming back here to journel about it and holding yourself accountable. so many times i've had a bad day or two and then slip right back into my old habits. it doesn't have to be that way. we slip up, recognize it, and then move on. you are doing great and being "aware" is half the battle. hang in there! ps- thanks for the friending :) 
19 Sep 11 by member: Fat2phat
Kat, no apologies girl! You can say whatever you want. =) Last night after i read what you wrote and I re-read that JM quote I really thought about it. I don't feel bad AT ALL for my weekend splurges. That was the first time since I have started this journey that I've splurged to that extent. Why should i feel bad about that? if I splurged ALL the time then ok, I get feeling bad. We have to allow ourselves some yummy food or we will NOT get to the end of our journeys. You are totally right in everything you said. I have lost almost 75 lbs! If i want a pumpkin frappe once in a while I can have one! =) I enjoyed myself the whole weekend. It felt good to NOT worry about what i was putting into my mouth. Yesterday, it was right back on track. It wasn't even a thought. Last night my GF had chocolate and asked me if I wanted some and i was like, nope. Wasn't even a thought in my head. I think if you can do treats in a responsible manner, why not? My prob has never been eating to much, it's been eating enough and the RIGHT foods. Thank you everyone for your honestly and feedback! 
20 Sep 11 by member: HerStrawberri


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