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I'm back to journaling once again! I really need to do this for me, everyday or close to it. I had been off the wagon for about 5 days earlier in the month. It has taken me almost a month to lose those little pounds (again) that took only 5 days to gain on less than 1800 calories per day. Once I acknowledged I was back onboard Atkins, Paula had asked me to tough it out over the next few days, to get any cravings under control. So, here I am back to feeling good again. Paula wanted to talk about what happened. So here goes: Yes, I was getting bored w/my food. I need to put more energy into food planning and preparation to change things up! But mostly I was having trouble sleeping at night and then during the day I had a dark cloud hanging around here and there for what I thought was for no reason. (I changed up my vitamins and minerals since then.) Geezzzzz... I thought to myself I should be really happy. Look at all the weight that I have lost since May 2010 (I weighed 320 back then). Paula asked what may have went on in my world to side track me. That I definately know, and know how much it bothers me, and I will have to work a little harder to change that big obsticle. I had a successful satisfying job for 28 yrs that I loved. The last year being 2005, was a state gov downsize and mandatory geographical reorg (30 Field District HQ's cut to 15 Field District HQ's to avoid going through layoff mode). Instead of moving across the state, I decided to resign to be with my fiance, now husband. So, I gave up my employment idenity. I thought, I will find another great paying job in no time, it will be easy, (I was 46 then). NOT... That happened to be when USA Economy came crashing down... Since then I have worked some temp jobs, and a 6 month internship with City and County gov that was supposed to help me step back into the working world a little easier. That was during the beginning of the year. I am still seeking employment. I don't have to, my husband makes us a comfortable living. I want to work. Being a working girl is part of who I am. And I feel I still have lots to offer. My birthday came and went late June, that is when the dark clouds starting drifting over me and continued to get worse. I now know as Paula says how important the 'why's' are... I am going to truck along and continue to look for work. I attend networking workshops. I'm sure when the economy picks up something will present itself that will be just right for me. I was a Regional Admin Supervisor and Public Works Contracts Officer when my State career ended. To get me through, I will find other things to do to fill my day. One day at a time, one step at a time adding to my self-care! :)
Diet Calendar Entry for 26 August 2011:
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1319 kcal
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Fat: 93.31g | Prot: 82.11g | Carb: 50.44g.
Breakfast: kraft colby jack natural cheese slice, black forest ham, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), water, Heavy Whipping Cream, Splenda. Lunch: ken's chunky blue cheese dressing, Splenda, Heavy Whipping Cream, water, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Aidells Chicken & Apple Sausage, dijion mustard, red tomato. Dinner: cheddar cheese (sliced), green beans, zucchini, brussels sprouts, dijion mustard, Aidells Chicken & Apple Sausage, water, tejava iced tea. Snacks/Other: atkins advantage chocolate carmel nut roll, Atkins Advantage Milk Chocolate Delight Shake, egg (boiled). more...
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We have alot in common, I was reading and see we both got pushed out of a job. My hubby is a general contractor. After 30 plus years, we all know the housing market was the beginning of the end. My birthday is also late June. I don't drink or smoke. Easy to gain when you don't care and stop eating healthy. We dust ourselves off and say time to change. One thing I can control is getting these pounds off. Hang in there, we never give up. : )
26 Aug 11 by member: Bocalvr
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Bocalvr, Yes, just keep on moving one positive foot forward after another! I wish you well in your weight loss journey! :)
26 Aug 11 by member: moondove
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Boy can I relate to your entry! I live in CA...which is B.R.O.K.E. I can not find work either. I used to be a successful private contractor with the state and they cut-cut-cut....it's been very hard. This is another reason that I have been trying so hard to lose weight...because believe it or not...over-weight job applicants are discriminated against. It's bad enought that I'm 50+, but I can't change that! However, I decided that I can change my physical appearance and health.
Anyway, you are doing great! Keep up the hard work cuz we are all behind you!
26 Aug 11 by member: Bird Fancier
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Bird Fancier, I know there are lots of us out there without jobs due to the bad economy. Making myself more employable was a big reason that I really anchored down to lose this weight. Not the only one, but a big one. Yes, I agree, first 10 second look over at a job interview sets the mood. During the last several months, there are just no jobs to interview for. When I was being interviewed, I have been offered jobs over others even with my extra weight. (2 yrs ago, I was one of over 1,000 applicants reviewed, interview hoops 3x, then down to the remaining 5, last interview down to 2, then lost out because I was an hour away and they wanted someone who lived close for safety issues. The company was Simplot. Ugggg... Wasn't meant to be.) But, I understand where you are coming from. I don't feel 52. I feel like I'm in my 30's, except for the weight and exercise. I know I can do it! We will get there together! Here we come!!! :) Hope you have a terrific weekend!
26 Aug 11 by member: moondove
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Giving up an employment identity is a biggie! But, for me, I had to come to terms with the fact that I'm truly more than my job title, and that was something I still struggle with from time to time. Have you considered volunteering? Perhaps in some setting you've always been interested in but haven't had the time? As the economy has faltered, numerous non-profits and service agencies are tight on funds but high in personnel needs. Part of the reason I volunteer is because it gives me a purpose, with a schedule that's still flexible enough to allow me other opportunities, and because I can utilize the skills I have to serve a need in the community. Enjoy your weekend.
26 Aug 11 by member: Sandy701
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Hey Girlfriend! I am so proud of you!!! Kudos to you for getting things back under control, and for working towards really looking at some of the 'why's'!!! Age, Stress, and Rediscovering Yourself (in today's economy) are three very big 'pressure buttons' going on in your world. And I totally understand. But while you are NOT running the 6am-6pm working world schedule for a job... use this time to your advantage. Make it a 'work' project of sorts... and find ONE new thing about eating a low carb lifestyle EVERYDAY. You have an entire internet at your disposal. READ, READ, and READ some more! Look for new recipes. Watch out for ingredients you've found you won't be using (for me that was artificial sweetners) - then modify them - print, and compile a makeshift cookbook of your own. (this will come in handy as you begin to move into OWL.) Sometimes I go thru them, and think...oh, I loved that dish and I forgot all about that! Determine yourself to do ONE activity a day. Either stretching or walking, or dancing, or gardening, or biking or hiking...or anything... but something!!! Eventually you will begin to enjoy being more active. (and you may develop long term habits that will help you long term.) Thank goodness you're still here, still plugging along, and still preparing for when that right opportunity opens itself up to you... but while that is happening make yourself, your honest goals for YOU - important enough to put a little dedicated time into the 'mechanics' of this way of eating...and it will become... a way of life. Great job on getting back on track :) Much Love.
27 Aug 11 by member: jsfantome
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Morning girl, try to enjoy your time off..Its hard in the begining as I well know..But for us we decided we needed to quit..The construction
world was getting very slim. I have grown to love the no hassle days and hope fully you can too...You have done a wonderful job of losing
the weight and you can keep that up...Like Paula says we all have to
put forth an effort...I love Paula...she's a good egg....Bren
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That is a fabulous journal entry, really opening you up to thinking where you are. Some great ideas as usual from all these great buddies. I know I changed jobs about 18months ago, I thought it was a bad move, had to do it. I didn't realize till after I left how much it was killing me, way to busy never ever had time for me it took a long time to stop just thinking about work, but finally got used to it. I do prefer the slow down now and enjoy just doing things for me, that was a very weird change to do stuff for me. Plus your daughter and grandkidlings have just moved out, so there is another adjustment for you. There are so many possibilities out there for you. Your job is not you as Sandy says you are more than your job title, that will come.....Have a lovely weekend......{{{HUGS}}}
27 Aug 11 by member: Yvonne19
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