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133 can you hear me? 132... are you home? 130... you exist right?
134... go away, I'm done with you.
Facebook is generally a good thing, however after your second night of a 13 hour shift and seeing pictures of 2 girls who used to be your best friends with the old group at one of the girls going away party... doesn't mix. I cried myself to sleep this morning. It's not even that I want to be close with them anymore, it's just the fact that I miss it. It's been like this for the past year and a half and I've tried everything I can to fix it, we just grew apart, plain and simple. Sometimes it's harder to have a friendship go dry gradually rather than with anger and quickly. Because, you still have hope and if that doesn't work, that still hurts.
I love old historic neighborhoods and my grandpa was from Detroit, so I was looking at houses there (not that I can actually move) and this mornning I came home and my husband was like, "I watched this show and it was based in Detroit... that is the craziest town and people are so rude, I never want to go there" I was thinking... bubble busted.
For weight loss, I need to drink more water and exercise. Yep.
For my health.. I need to not work nights.
Diet Calendar Entry for 20 July 2011:
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708 kcal
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Fat: 39.88g | Prot: 23.97g | Carb: 63.26g.
Dinner: cheese, Pepperoni Pizza. Snacks/Other: water. more...
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I understand how you feel, I work 13 hour shifts as well (4 in a row starting tomorrow), and it is hard to find the energy sometimes to do anything at all. It's definitely easy to let our health and relationships suffer. I haven't seen my best friend in over a year (and she only lives 30 mins away), and part of the reason is that she's a tall, skinny, blonde, and I feel like I've let myself go since I saw her last. WOW! That sure sounded vain. I'm sabatoging our friendship because of my own insecurities.
Anyway, what's helped me to get motivated the last couple days is to recruit my boyfriend as my new personal trainer (He really just hands me weights and yells "you can do it!", but it helps).
Also, I live just outside Detroit and the city is coming back to life, a lot of new growth and revitalization going on there. So tell your hubby not to believe everything he sees on t.v. ;)
"Don't waste the years struggling for things that are unimportant. Don't destroy your peace of mind by looking back, worrying about the past. Live in the present, enjoy the present." -Henry David Thoreau
20 Jul 11 by member: andeblois
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Nothing in life is meant to be forever, in my opinion. Friends are friends because we feel close, we share points of view and life experiences. But like you said, you grew apart and this friendship is over now. You will have all those good times with them in your memories forever though... You are brave to work night shifts! I hope you have a good routine and you can rest enough, sleep is so important for you health.
20 Jul 11 by member: jessyline
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Thanks andeblois and jessyline!
andeblois - You should go see your best friend sometime when it feels right :-) I'm sure she misses you too! Someday I will see Detroit! (and I don't even know what allure is about it... maybe the cheap historic houses and it's a place that sees snow too!... I don't even know :-)
Jessyline - I have a pretty decent routine and I love my sleep. Right now I'm working in a Sleep lab and it's quite riveting (eye roll)
21 Jul 11 by member: acupofcoffeeandabook
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