Hildi72's Journal, 12 March 2015

I didn't weigh myself this morning. I went on a food bender last night...I was doing well food wise till I started this creeping feeling of stress and all of a sudden BOOM, I found myself in the drive thru at Wendy's...a double cheeseburger and large fries later, I felt guilt.

Stress seems to have been building up for me and I need to find a way to decompress. I need to find a stress valve to relieve the building up of all this. I wish I could take a vacation so I can just chill but given my new work responsibilities plus my personal responsibilities, it will be a long while before I can take one.

Maybe I will just take a long drive somewhere...a shoreline or a park...just be silent and listen to the birds chirping, the waves crashing...peace for a few moments.

Rant over...back to your regular programming...

Diet Calendar Entries for 12 March 2015:
1795 kcal Fat: 92.82g | Prot: 116.22g | Carb: 138.16g.   Breakfast: Fage Total 0% Greek Yogurt with Raspberry, Kind Nuts & Spices Dark Chocolate Nuts & Sea Salt, Water. Lunch: Water, Kraft Blue Cheese Crumbles, Kraft Classic Caesar Dressing, Subway Cream of Broccoli Soup, Broccoli, American Type Grapes (Slip Skin), Fresh & Easy Pineapple Chunks, Goya Black Beans, Chicken Breast. Snacks/Other: Trader Joe's Raw Whole Cashews, Kind Nuts & Spices Dark Chocolate Nuts & Sea Salt. more...
3080 kcal Activities & Exercise: Sleeping - 6 hours, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 30 minutes, Desk Work - 4 hours, Resting - 13 hours and 30 minutes. more...
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If you can, try using a gym for stress release. A win-win. You get a workout in, you will feel much better because of the release of endorphins and your appetite will be curbed. 
12 Mar 15 by member: PlanoMike
Thanks Mike. I have to find a way to build out workout time in my schedule. It seems like I am in meetings, or running to a meeting, or catching a train and hurrying home to help solve more issues. Its been a stressful few months... 
12 Mar 15 by member: Hildi72
I used to be in situations like that with my old job. Long hours. Stress, fast food. Find a hobbie that will distress you. Working out really helps distress me. I can get hot headed easily. I started MMA training so learning to beat the crap out of someone and getting an insane workout at the same time seems to help me a lot. Also riding season is around the corner. Long motorcycle rides put my mind at ease. You need to find hobbies and activities that work for you. What's great about workout classes/gym classes is it takes your mind off your stressful situation and you are working out at the same time.  
12 Mar 15 by member: Panigale1199
12 Mar 15 by member: Panigale1199
I am the same way. I also don't have a lot of time to workout due to having a full time job and being a single mom. I try to at least get in a run. It seems to help with the stress a little. Even if you don't have that much time it wont take you long to at least get in a mile and then you wont want to sabotage that effort with a Wendy's cheeseburger :)  
12 Mar 15 by member: madwaysmom
Life should never evolve around a career or job that you hate or causing stress or unhappiness. I think to many people in this world put too much emphasis on their work and trying to be financially successful. Nobody ever said on their death bed "I wish I would have worked harder and spent less time enjoying life or spending it with my family/fiends". Nobody that I know has ever brought a Uhaul trailer to their own funeral to be buried with all of their possessions. 
12 Mar 15 by member: midnightoil
My husband works out when he's stressed instead of eating, weight lifting works best for him. Hopefully you can find an outlet for you stress or a way to reduce it!  
12 Mar 15 by member: fat2foxy
Well I know it is not a good thing to do, but I don't want to weigh either when I feel I have had a good binge. Bite the bullet and get back on the diet and weigh next week when you feel better about it. 
12 Mar 15 by member: diehard3
A nature break is a great idea. It helps me reset and feel more in balance when I'm stressed out. 
12 Mar 15 by member: mollyfied
Don't let the binge take away anything! The scale isn't going to catch up with that for a couple days, so relieve your guilt, stress, and responsibilities and take that long drive, a few long walks. I like to get up and put on great music and dance away the daily garbage. Stress and guilt - bye-bye baby!! 
12 Mar 15 by member: TKay3586
I agree with Midnightoil - get perspective and get real about allowing the job to cause you poor health decisions. YOU have the power here - not them! Rah Rah! Pep talk over... 
12 Mar 15 by member: HCB
Thanks for all the comments guys, let me clear up a few things: - I love my new job, I am a tech enthusiast at heart so the tech spin in this new role is awesome. The stress comes with the current build out of my area within the company. I just have to manage some discussions better. - Home stress is based on the fact that I have taken the role of general counsel, accountant, IT Guy and general fixer, during my non-working hours, for my spouse's new business...I enjoy it but it does take a toll. - Ever since I was young I have been a mentor to everyone. I am the guy they always seek guidance from for major decisions and I appreciate that. The problem comes in that sometimes I just need some time to just chill and not think about anyone but me...selfish, maybe...but I need some me time to just un-wind. SO there you have it...my stress in a nutshell...nothing bad per se but just a flood of stuff that I need to manage better. I will look into getting exercise because ultimately it will make me feel better and will help me drop the weight. Thanks for the comments guys! 
12 Mar 15 by member: Hildi72
NOT selfish - it is called "self-care" - you have to come first sometimes so you can be at your best. 
12 Mar 15 by member: HCB
12 Mar 15 by member: Panigale1199
Give yourself time to fit into the new job and then the stress will relax and you will feel better and the food demons won't get you.  
12 Mar 15 by member: BrenIL1
Maybe you could start by slipping in mini-workouts without trying to carve out a chunk of time in your hectic schedule. Put some hand weights by your desk and use them a few minutes here or there. Look on line and you will find many exercises you can do without at your desk or in jut a few minutes through out the day. Besides getting physical exercise, you can also sneak in a mental break between tasks.  
12 Mar 15 by member: izzypup68


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