suthrngirl's Journal, 07 July 2014

Bless me Fat Secret for I have sinned and sinned and sinned...
I lost my job of 31 years. Now I'm fat, broke and lonely.

I have worked since I was 13. I have never not had a job. I always pay my bills. This is killing me.

Have you ever been tired of being yourself? I want to wake up thin with a terrific career and bo. Notice I didn't say beautiful. I already know I'm cute!! I'm fun too. I'm just tired of being fluffy and poor. I don't need a man to validate me either but daaaamn it would be nice to have a cuddle now and then.

Please forgive me if this journal seems like I'm whining. I'm not really. It seems to be good therapy for me. It's drawing my energy away from sitting in the middle of my bed crying. You know, the UGLY cry. I'm always happy and strong but this all caved in on me. My poor cat won't leave my side. I think she thinks shes on suicide watch. roflmao. Love life too much for that!!!

Had an amazeball weekend on IOP. Friends, food (omg), music and fireworks. Guess that's why coming home to reality hit hard. That, and I think I screwed up an interview for a job I really, really want.

I've stopped crying and I'm putting my big girl panties on. I have a diet and a budget planned out. Tomorrow morning I'll start over. This is a chance to have a new life. Elaine 2.5 One good thing about me, I never give up.

Thanks for letting me get the negative out of my system.

on diet suthrngirl's own diet  

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I feel ya - PURGE! 
07 Jul 14 by member: JuanaBsmall
I love your attitude, I know it's hard but you will get through this. Feel free to vent and best wishes on staying positive. Good things are coming! :) 
07 Jul 14 by member: ChicaLean
good luck! we will be here! 
08 Jul 14 by member: kristyanne3


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