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Let me tell you a little story about a pair of dress pants. These pants were purchased about 3 years ago, when I was doing very well in my weight loss efforts. I bought the pants off the rack without trying them on, only to discover when I got home that the pants were WAY too small. I kept the tags on, because I planned to return them. Days went by, and I finally decided that I'd just keep the pants, hoping I could fit into them eventually. Those cute, pinstripe, cuffed dress pants remained in the back of my closet longing to be worn, but they never could be.... until today!
My happy behind is wearing those sweet pinstripe dress pants. I tried them on this morning as just a trial to see how much further I'd have to go. They pulled up over my thighs and I was already impressed. When they actually zipped, I gasped. When I looked in the mirror and realized they weren't tight at ALL, loose even, I almost cried.
It is HARD WORK to lose weight, even harder if you're trying to actually get healthy, not just lose weight. I decided in the beginning that I didn't care to lose weight if I didn't do it correctly, and if I didn't become healthier in the process. Fads, pills, and surgeries aren't for me (though I would NEVER judge anyone who needed any of those...). My #1 goal is to be healthy. But my #2 goal is to be happy... and for me that means being able to feel good. I'm already starting to feel good emotionally and mentally- I feel strong and confident that I can reach my goals. I also want to feel good knowing I can go shopping in any store I want and be able to wear their clothes. I've never been able to do that my entire life. Even when I was a little girl I had to shop in the women's dept because they didn't have plus size girls clothes then (or if they did we couldn't afford it). For once I want to wear the clothes I like, not just the clothes I can button or zip.
So thank you, pinstripe dress pants, for reminding me of what I have accomplished, and what great things are in store for my life. Losing weight might be a physical battle, but it's an emotional war. I plan to win this one :)
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