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So exhausted with myself I feel as if I'm about to combust, trying a new hairstyle, and new make up look I thought I looked great, felt fabulous even took a couple pictures, feel like I'm hitting a weight loss stride, the moment my bf sees me he yells "ahhhhhh" so suddenly I feel like a complete ugly fat misguided mess. I felt so good and that feeling is gone, he said my make up looked to white but I know it was my hair, already he lamented about the shrinkage of my breast with the weighloss...I just want to know why this criticism hurts me to my core I immediately put my hair back and changed lip color and put on darker color powder. What will I be happy in happy enough so criticism won't hurt me. But instead I hear everything, remember everything, and in turn feel at fault for everything. Sorry to journal this but I needed to get it out.
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