kingkeld's Journal, 28 November 2013

Good morning!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Wow. I have SO many thanks to give, it's ridiculous. I could probably spend my entire day writing this journal if I had to give thanks to every single one that I am thankful to, but I will cut it short.

Thanks to you guys - all my buddies, friends and supporters. This journey has been nothing short of amazing, and I couldn't have done it with all the thoughts, the comments, the input from all of you.

Thanks to my family for always being there. There is no point in spending a lot of words praising my family, because words will never be enough.

Thanks to everyone who's given me new opportunities the last year. Everyone who has been involved in my weight loss classes, working at the gym, helping to slowly build the Kingkeld Kingdom.

I could go on...

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So, how are you guys gonna celebrate? Here in Denmark, Thanksgiving is NOT a holiday, so we are working both today and tomorrow. For the reason, we decided to celebrate tomorrow instead of tonight. We have several American/Danish couples (and one American/Japanese couple) coming over for dinner. We're going American Thanksgiving all the way with everything that normally is included.

This is the last food challenge for me before surgery.

We're getting CLOSE! I'm being cut one week from today!

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Right now, I seem to be stuck at 84 kilos. I can't seem to budge the scale downwards, and that really sucks. Body fat percentage is 11, and it's not all bad, but not all good either. I wish I was MORE ready than I am.

Looking at the numbers from last time I was at the surgeon's consultation, and comparing to today, my average weight over the previous month was 81.8 kilos. Today, it's 83.0 kilos. I have overall gained 2.2 kilos. It's not a LOT, but it is too much for MY comfort. I really want to stay at my weight.

I can't evaluate fat/muscle/water weights on the two dates, as I didn't record them back then, but I can see today that I am probably 1½ kilo heavier in water/muscle compared to average days right now, and this of course tells me that I am retaining water - and probably also have built a chunk of muscle since my last visit in August.

It's hopefully all good.

Also, looking at the stats from last visit, I actually dropped almost 4 kgs the last 5 days before going. Maybe I can do that again. :D

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Today is a hectic day again. I'm finishing up cases at work before my sick leave. There is SO much to do, and it is really stressing me out. I can't wait to just let it ALL go. I'm tired. Very tired.

At the same time, I can't sleep. I know this is one of the reasons that my weight is going crazy too. I probaby eat a little too much (though I keep things in a short leash, no stupid choices, but probably a little too little focus due to exhaustion), and I don't move just as much as I normally would. I don't sleep as much as I should.

This morning I woke up at 3 AM, and haven't slept since. There really isn't a lot I can do about it.

I have four more work days. That's it. I just gotta push through and get it done and over with.

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I have planned out my lunch and my afternoon snack so far today. I don't have the dinner plans ready yet, but it'll be something very low calorie, probably chicken breast and some veggies.

I know that there is almost no point to struggling to lose the last weight. If the weight actually IS gained fat, then there isn't much I can do about it in one week. If it is water/food/muscle/anything-else, then it won't matter much what I eat.

I don't have many calories planned out today regardless - I think I might be able to push the weight down a notch simply by eating as planned.

I will focus on getting more than enough water, to avoid fluid retention. I will make sure to not have many calories - but enough protein and fat - and just do good. It's time for the last kick in the teeth - especially since we have the thanksgiving dinner tomorrow.

I am ready for tomorrow's challenge. I know how to handle it.

Basically, I plan to use my Intermittent Fasting experience to the fullest. I'm simply not gonna eat until dinner. I won't get overly hungry - I'm past that stage, because I know how to handle hunger - so I will ONLY have the calories from the feast.

I will make DAMN sure that it's a small feast. A small portion of food, with a LARGE chunk of meat. Almost no sides. Dessert? Sure. Maybe a tiny piece of something, unless I hear the carb demon knocking.

Mind you, he hasn't really been around lately. I haven't missed him. He can stay away and bug someone else all he wants.

Drinks for the meal? Water. Nothing else.

I know - it's a pretty boring Thanksgiving dinner for me. But the surgery is important. I don't want to weigh myself down, and I don't want to end up retaining water because of the carbs. It's just not gonna happen.

This HAS to be ALL about priorities.

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Today, I'm thankful for:
- Wife!
- Picking up our new beds today! YAY! :)
- Morning coffee!

Life is good!

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Good morning Keld, how nice of you to host a Thanksgiving dinner (tomorrow). Canadians (I'm Scottish but a Canadian citizen now) - we have our Thanksgiving in October. I am not surprised you are uber stressed right now, you don't need me to list the reasons again. There is nothing you can do sweetie but just hold it together a little longer. If you only have four more work days that means you likely stop working on Wednesday next week, and Thursday is THE DAY. Between you and my friend Bella, I'm stressing too. I am worrying and thinking about both of you, all the time :) I'm crazy but I care about you both. So enjoy your feast, you sound like you are in a good space with your choices. I have no remedy for stress, we are all victims of the stupid thing. Just keep on keeping on, knowing people care about your well being and hopefully that helps a little. And it sucks you can't or rather won't have a drink with dinner but I quite understand why. I'll be at my sister's this week-end, and drinking a lot, so I'll have one (or two) for you. Salut my Danish buddy :) [ H U G S ] 
28 Nov 13 by member: sarahsmum
I feel you - and I definitely feel Bella. :( And SEVERAL drinks for me, will you? Today is just not a good diet day. I'll stay within RDI, but was hoping to be much lower than where I will realistically end up. On the positive side, I get all the protein and fats that I am SUPPOSED TO, and I am still restricting carbs. I hope I'll be ok. There is just TOO much going on here.  
28 Nov 13 by member: kingkeld
Oh hun, telling you to just breathe might get me punched - you are just too stressed for that silly stuff. Stress and work are crazy things, been in a job like that before, many times, but so thankful to be in a relatively stress free job now. Just keep saying - four more days, that's all you have to get through, four more days, then a good long rest. I don't know how far ahead in time you are over there but your work day may be almost over? 
28 Nov 13 by member: sarahsmum
Awww Keld... All I can do is send (((hugs))). Don't forget to remember how far you have come, you are a shadow of your former self and have completely turned your life around... And - I would think - extended it by a good few years. Enjoy your thanksgiving dinner - it's about the company, not just the food xxx 
28 Nov 13 by member: Sk1nnyfuture
I appreciate it, Pam. Every other time, I would focus on the entire journey (well, mostly). RIGHT NOW is RIGHT NOW. Surgery is in a week, and it's damn frickin' hard to handle the stress around EVERYTHING, and it makes me not do well. I have a plan though, and it does include (some) thanksgiving food. I hope I can pull it off. More later. :) 
28 Nov 13 by member: kingkeld
You can always enjoy Christmas dinner when it gets here. I pray for all to go well with your upcoming surgery. Look how far you have come. Not the one step back you took since August. You are an amazing man who has come so far. Be proud. Hope you have a nice dinner tomorrow 
28 Nov 13 by member: iamachristianjesusfreak

     
 

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