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When I was out jogging yesterday, I got chatting to a woman walking her dog. She asked if I'm in training for an event and I found myself saying that, initially, I was running to lose weight and that I've now lost six stone (84 lbs) since April 2013. All of a sudden, I wondered why I felt the need to mention it at all -- and that confused me. Of course, I'm proud of what I've achieved and it's not that it doesn't matter, as it'll always be a part of me, my history, my life. However, I'm starting to feel that it's not as relevant to who I am now. It's as though it's part of the past, rather than where I am today. Now, I'm not just smaller, I sleep early, run every day, don't drink alcohol, etc. Am I trying to distance myself from the person who went up to 20 stone (283 lbs)? I think so, a little. I feel quite ashamed now that I ever allowed myself to gain an excess 9 stone. I've still got 30 lbs to lose but I think I'm also beginning to get used to being the slim person I always was before. At the same time, I'm afraid to let go of where I've been, in case I get complacent, forget that looks aren't the priority, or even start piling the weight back on again. Much as I love being smaller, I have to say, all this is quite unexpectedly confusing.
Diet Calendar Entries for 02 November 2013:
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1069 kcal
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Fat: 22.06g | Prot: 89.07g | Carb: 120.73g.
Breakfast: Morrisons Carvery Peppered Ham, Philadelphia 1/3 Less Fat Cream Cheese, Ryvita Dark Rye Crackers, 2% Fat Milk, Decaffeinated Tea Unsweetened. Lunch: Skinless Chicken Breast, Heinz Baked Beans, White Potatoes (Flesh and Skin). Dinner: Green Giant Sweetcorn, Brown Rice (Long-Grain, Cooked), Cooked Lentils, Skinless Chicken Breast. Snacks/Other: Nutella Hazelnut Spread, Carr's Table Water Crackers, Water. more...
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3178 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Desk Work - 4 hours, Shopping - 20 minutes, Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 2 hours, Resting - 9 hours and 40 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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