infusedwithextract's Journal, 12 October 2007

today i pretty much hate my body. i'm an empowered woman with a master's in business and a great new job, and i still hate my body. i should be writing about how i have control over things, how i workout regularly, try to eat a balance of whole grains, protein and essential nutrients, but right now, i'm just not feeling it.

i think we all have these days.

it doesn't help when a little monster inside tugs at that fat left on your stomach and belly, highlighting your imperfections.

a long time ago, i thought i was over all of this. but no, you don't escape everyday pressure to be perfectly lean, have great hair, flawless skin, etc. i just want to be taken seriously, so socially, when you're objectified, it's frustrating.

at the end of the day, 110-115 is a great weight range for someone my height, but i'm still not a VS model and only implants and some serious calorie-restriction will get me there. none of which i think is a good idea. i remember dropping the pounds before i got married and feeling really good about myself back then. i had a great support system with plenty of positive reinforcement. now, i live with the disapproving glares and veritable diet/exercise watch. it's driving me crazy and it makes me want to stay home sometimes. but then again, the more i'm out, the more attention i get for looking good.

i'm going to have a good cry session tonight. screw it.
on diet The South Beach Diet  


Have a good cry and let it all out! You are an empowered woman who needs to love yourself and look at your blessings. Count them and be thankful and then look at why you want to eat healthy.. for YOU, because you love yourself enough to want to be at your best. :) You can do it!  
13 Oct 07 by member: bullytrouble
HOW tall are you???? 
13 Oct 07 by member: mygranners


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