jsfantome's Journal, 01 January 2013

I love a NEW YEAR! (particularly here in New England). I am looking out my window to cold winter's morning... the sun is shining off the thin layer of snow, all the leaves are gone from the trees, and the 'newness' of spring awaits! But we all have to go thru some 'dead' periods in our lives to begin to see new growth. There is alot of work going on - on the inside of me - just as there is in the earth outside my window. And in a few short months the grass will begin to turn green again, the trees will bud, and the guy up the street will be down here to plow the field next to my house! Seasons...give me the right perspective to make some changes.

I will be laying the ground work in the next few months. I have already started with the obvious. Back to eating strictly low carb. And - I must say, starting to feel better physically.

I will be joining back at Curves tomorrow. I really didn't want to justify the expense... HOWEVER... sometimes you have to be honest with yourself. YES, I know I could make headway at the gym (which is cheaper). But I haven't. And I know that I need to be exercising to reach my goals. But I'm not. SOOOO, since I can look back and know that the one time in my life that I felt like I had been in the best shape of my life, was when I went to curves... I am going back. I don't care if it's boring. It produces results. And I don't care about the cost...as the cost to re-gaining the weight has been unbearable! So... a new me, for a new year! It's worth it. I'm worth it.

So while the earth slows down to recouperate from a fruitful harvest of fall... while it dies to some old ways, to regenerate itself for the new growth of Spring... I will also die to some old ways. And I will also begin the prep work necessary for spring growth!

Only my 'growth' won't be in the upwards direction on the scale. Nope, my growth chart will look more like - satisfaction. Hope. Joy. Acceptance. Appreciation. Confidence. Beauty. Love.

Hope you are ready for a kick-ass NEW YEAR... cause if you are in need of an ass kicking... I'm here for ya! No excuses. Get mad. Then get even. Focus on what is deep down inside pulling at you... and if you want to change... then make the decision.

The rest (how to) is information. And that - can be found and used. But you have to settle the 'internal' decision for yourself. Can't do that for you. But I have done it for myself again. And I am so happy I have!

Much Love... and we're off!!!! 2013 Here We Come!

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1335 kcal

Fat: 92.35g | Prot: 102.07g | Carb: 20.54g.   Breakfast: bacon (9AM), water (6-10 AM), hidden carbs, coffee (8oz) black, eggland's best eggs . Lunch: yellow squash, pot roast. Dinner: italian sausage, real bacon pieces, bacon ranch dressing, cucumber, Romaine, feta cheese. more...