Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 04 January 2019

I know my last journal confused a few, pissed a few off, and probably made a few peoples eyes to glaze over. The thing is.. I feel great. Life is simple again. I need simple. Life is complicated enough between work, the kids, the farm, and all those life things. Right now I can't seem to find the time to watch a tv show or read a book. I don't want to spend countless minutes of my life logging individual almonds or counting individual almonds for the sake of saying I ate 10 freaking almonds.

This method is for me. If you do something else for you and it works then good for you. Personally I have tried most things under the sun and in the past 3 years I have either yo-yoed or gained because I stopped looking at myself as a valuable human freakin being. Dieting had turned into something so extreme that I was basically punishing myself and then when I slipped it wasn't perfect so I would end up crashing and burning. Then I would beat myself up because I wasn't losing any weight because I kept crashing and burning. So I would punish myself in a new way or again with another diet that was something I could not sustain. That was me. This year I'm having some compassion. I'm loving myself. I'm only adopting things I love. If I love it I will do it and it won't suck.

Fun facts.. I've tried Low Carb, Low Carb High Fat, Keto, Atkins, etc. I even lost a lot of weight on them in the past because they do work but then I regained it after each kid and struggled to get it back off. Why? Because I HATE bulletproof coffee. But I would drink it. I only like an Avacado in guacamole but I would still put it on my plate next to my eggs. And.. I'm not a huge egg lover. I love my chickens. Not their eggs. Don't get me wrong the eggs are delicious but I have zero desire to eat them every freakin day. And.. sometimes.. I would eat hot dogs for breakfast because I didn't have time. Something tells me a hot dog is not a healthy meal option no matter what diet I'm on but it fit in my counts and my macros and I could hold on to it while driving to work so I did it! I got weird looks while stuck I traffic but well.. I was on plan.

I've tried counting calories, weight watchers, drinking glasses of water until my eyes watered, fiber pills to try to feel full.. I've tried some pretty crazy things. None of them were something that I loved or enjoyed. I hate counting how many almonds I've eaten. I want to grab a handful and go. I have small hands. It's about a serving size but I have no clue if it's 10 or 15 almonds. I don't care.

This week I have followed the rules of eat healthy foods that I love, only eat when I'm hungry, stop when I'm satisfied, exercise regularly, and love life. I feel absolutely freakin amazing. Last night I had more energy than I have had in a long time. I attacked a rotisserie chicken with a fork. The kids attacked it with a fork too because it was a busy night and we were all running around like chickens. You want to give someone a memory to last them a life time.. battle over a rotisserie chicken with forks. I have no idea how many calories I'm eating but from years of counting I can tell it's an ok amount. I'm not miserable. I'm not tempted to over eat. I don't feel guilty. I'm not angry at myself and then being a miserable person to be around. I know it's only been a week but so far I'm loving this new way of life.

There is one thing I may have to do that I wasn't excited about. I joined a weight challenge at work for the holidays to maintain or lose between thanksgiving and new years. Next week is the deadline to weigh in. At home I'm avoiding the scale because I would let it affect how I felt about myself. But.. I'm pretty sure I'm doing pretty good so I will weigh in and then avoid the scale again or only weigh in once a month to monitor. Either way. I'm not going to stress. I'm going to keep being kind to myself.

Diet Calendar Entry for 04 January 2019:
2718 kcal Activities & Exercise: Fitbit - 24 hours. more...

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Take care of you, first. The number on the scale means nothing of youre sacrificing quality of life to get to it. Last time we spoke you had a baby strapped to your chest while you were doing chores around the farm, im sure things have changed so much since then. Hoping all is well! 
05 Jan 19 by member: Yolanda9179
What Yolanda said! 
07 Jan 19 by member: jessabridge4444

     
 

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