pam-u-la's Journal, 29 August 2012

Day 11 of 65
Mood: 6.5
Food: 5
Activity level: 7 (really buay at work with lots of walking across the plant)

Grateful for: *** this will be a long list today**
My mobility, being able to get out of bed and walk to work
Creativity
My mom
My baby brother who has taught me strength
Children with special needs that I have worked with in the past who showed me enduance and taught me many life lessons
Good memories of my dad, and how funny things he used to say still make me laugh
Acceptance of mental health issues
My job crazy and stressful as it is
A roof over my head
Fresh fruit in the fridge
Fat secret app on my balckberry which enables me to stay "connected"
My buddies who either read and comment or just read what I have to say no matter how negative or positive.

** Told you a long list**

The bouncing scale.. Unfortunately the last few days the scale has bounced all over the place, at present it is up. I have been trying to drink more water evryday and have increased my fibre but still those digital numbers do not agree with me. I find myself looking down at them and cursing them. Vowing everyday that I will not step o the dang thing in the morning yet feel compelled to do so. It frustrates me, but then I think meh they are just numbers. I have the power and knowledge to fight them.
Now my food on the other hand, leading me to think oh I am doing so well! Then I go and record them and those dang calories add up quick. Where did they come from I think. How are vegetables and fruit adding up to so much? Why did my meal not feel like it was this much going in? Will it come out with those calories attached? (lol that is a funny thought)!!!
Was this all part of the unspoken details of my plan? Was my mind saying something but my body having evil alternative motives?
Perhaps I just need to work on patience and the miraces of what's to come. Simply do whe best that I can at the moment. Not allow myslef to be slip into the I give up emotion.
OR maybe gravity will surprise me in its theory of what goes up must come down..
Well that's it for now!
I hope I was able to bring a smile or better yet a chuckle to my buddies!
Wishing all a wonderful slightly wacky Wednesday.

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1431 kcal

Fat: 44.10g | Prot: 55.12g | Carb: 220.29g.   Breakfast: Dried Cranberries, Bananas, True Almond Vanilla, Coffee, No Calorie Sweetener (Packets), White Sugar (Granulated or Lump), Lemon, Corn Flakes. Lunch: No Calorie Sweetener, Tea (Brewed), Flaxseed Seeds, Cooked Broccoli (from Fresh, Fat Not Added in Cooking), Cooked Carrots (from Fresh), Cooked Red Peppers, Cooked Celery, Cooked Green String Beans (from Fresh). Dinner: Firm Silken Tofu, Blue Menu Celeb Margarine, Garden Cocktail, 100% Whole Wheat Bread. Snacks/Other: Peanut Butter, Dried Prune, Diet Mountain Dew (Bottle), Nectarines, Almonds, Water. more...

1860 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 45 minutes, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 25 minutes, Desk Work - 9 hours, Resting - 6 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 7 hours and 35 minutes. more...