fatfreeme's Journal, 11 September 2018

I need to vent here...So this weekend on Sunday I had a setback a little. I am just chalking it up as a free day. My boyfriend is my healthy eating sabotager. (I am not saying the word diet because i am not on one). I am on a lifestyle change. He can eat whatever he wants and he stays the same weight. HE lives his life to eat which is terrible for me and actually pretty boring. I can think of a million things to do besides eat.
I met him for lunch and hes the type that is like "you gotta try this" and then if i say no he pushes it. After lunch he wanted to go to the store to pick up food to make dinner by the time we got back to his place he was hungry AGAIN and started making a sandwich and pulls out all the junk food and lays it all out like it's party time. Then after that he wants to take a nap i am like WTF lets go to the gym lets go for a walk but he's like "I worked all week this is my day off". Then after he wakes up from his nap he wants to prepare dinner. uggg. to me this is torture because i'm not even hungry at all and i seriously would rather be doing something else but it's our day together and out of guilt I do what he wants since i don't see him all week. But guess what!! out of feeling like no choice and boredom i eat the freakin dinner. I guess if you can't beat them join them. but then Monday I am so mad at myself on so many levels. I wish i had more control when i am with him. I seem to have no problem when i am alone.

Diet Calendar Entries for 11 September 2018:
1102 kcal Fat: 50.42g | Prot: 26.97g | Carb: 159.75g.   Breakfast: Coffee, Bananas, Egg. Lunch: Potato Knish (Pastry Filled with Potato), Walnuts. Dinner: Dr. Praeger's Asian Veggie Burgers, Sweet Potato. Snacks/Other: Oranges, Voortman Sugar Free Chocolate Chip Cookies, Applesauce. more...
2529 kcal Activities & Exercise: Weight Training (moderate) - 30 minutes, Music playing - 3 hours, Resting - 12 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
on diet Weight Watchers  

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He sounds very self-centered. Perhaps even a little toxic. My husband has always been thin. He supports my way of eating and supplements with additional calories to keep from getting too skinny. He even cooks for me with my healthy recipes. You deserve someone like that. 
11 Sep 18 by member: Erquiaga
Erquiaga I thought u were a man 😬😂 
11 Sep 18 by member: rosio19
Oh u are a women all right just saw ur pretty red toes 😉 
11 Sep 18 by member: rosio19
Is that a last name? 
11 Sep 18 by member: rosio19
Currently single, I read these stories with a little relief. Struggling on my own right now, thank you, I wouldn't want to struggle against someone who is supposed to be my ally. I know a relationship has good and bad - hope you can come to a good resolution in your own mind, maybe make a plan for the weekend not just "hanging out" or napping unless that is scheduled! I agree that following another person's idea of fun can be boring sometimes. 
11 Sep 18 by member: abbadabba
Most people dont change much. This is what you are going to be doing 10 years from now with this guy.  
11 Sep 18 by member: AngieBarnette
Yes, Rosio, it's a last name. It is of Basque origin. My mother's side of the family all came from Spain. Some settled in the Western U.S. and others settled in Veracruz, Mexico.  
11 Sep 18 by member: Erquiaga


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