pam-u-la's Journal, 17 August 2012

I feel like the funky fog trapped in my brain is finally starting to lift. Now quite there but it clearing. One thing I noticed last night as I was munching on my favourite popcorn was that it was very much like throwing on a warm fuzzy blanket on a cold winters night. You know that eventually you'll get warm and need to take it off. That is how I am beginning to feel in regards to my eating. I am too comfortable with it, but I know that it needs to change.
So I have decided that over the weekend I am going to devise a plan and work on this comfort thing! This will include an official start date and a date inwhich I want to have my new goal achieved by. I will set my own personal challenges and perhaps like one of my buddies start a count down of the days.

On a differnt note.. I wanted to say thank you to all my buddies who teach me something new eevryday and of course for their continued and unwavering support. You all are amazing individuals who have made my life much richer by being in it.

Now for the Pam news/drama! Work still continues to be stressful, and I am having to overcome my sence of lack of confidence on what I have been doing. At home has not Ben much better with my roomate driving me nuts. He has turned into a lazy slob, and there is nothing but arguments that develope for them. If I have to hear one more time how he'll do it later I think I will blow a gasket on him. Then there is the finacial stress of not having any money, paycheck in and poof gone. These are all huge contibuting factors of how I have been feeling and I know this. That is why I put up reminders all over the place to breath and relax.. It works sometimes to calm me down. It all feels so out of control, and should be used to fuel my goals instead of eating me alive.

Well on a happier note it is friday and after 3 today I will have the weekend to destress! That will help.
Here's to friday and good thoughts and positive actions.