BJSamps's Journal, 25 April 2010

For the first time in my life, I'm realizing that losing this weight...even a measly 20 lbs is not going to happen overnight. I can't follow Atkins for a month or so and assume to lose all the weight I want, nor can I go back to my old WOL. In addition to not feeling well when I eat refined carbs, I'm more and more enraged by the disastrous health effects that white sugar and flour have on our bodies. I realized how clearly I understood this when I was making chocolate chip cookies the other night for my husband. Before when I was on any diet, I would have been tempted to lick my fingers or maybe even cheat, but this time, I had no desire. In fact, I began to think about the lack of nutritional benefits and even the possible detrimental effects to my husband, and contemplating not making them. (I did make them, partially because my husband LOVES my chocolate chip cookies, and he's never had a weight issue, but also because i had promised to bring them to a wake the next day.) I was left torn about whether or not I would ever make these cookies for my children someday (we're newlyweds, but plan to start a family in the next year or so). I don't want to set my children up for a life of struggling with weight and health issues. It's something I need to think about for sure. I'm rambling...I'm done for today. :)