kingkeld's Journal, 27 December 2011

It's the 27th of December - what we in Denmark by popular choice call 3rd Christmas Day. It's not really a holiday, but so many people have the days off between Christmas and New Year that it almost feels like a holiday. The stores are opening again, though, after being closed for three full days. This means that if you want to shop, you better brace yourself as EVERYONE is out there going nuts like if there had been hunger and famine sweeping the nation.

I, however, will NOT be shopping. We're all set, and good to go. We'll go tomorrow when things calm down, if we need anything.

First of all, I'd like to say thank you to my buddy SoLosingIt for writing such nice things about her in her latest journal. She's talking about her being inspired by me. I love the fact that I can inspire. Who knew? SoLosingIt, you put a huge smile on my face today, I even had to read your journal out loud for Wife to hear. I want to thank you for this.

So, I did a LOT of exercise yesterday. Throughout the day I managed to squeeze in 30 minutes of DVD workout in the morning, around noon Wife and I went for a 90 minute walk, and later on I managed 1 hour 45 minutes on the exercise bike. I think that'll do for one day.

Today I already did my DVD 30 minutes again, and I have a Walk planned again, and hopefully I will find energy for the bike.

The Christmas Gain is coming off fast, probably because of the exercise, but also because I have been REALLY focused on getting my water. I set my phone to remind me every hour, and then I go drink 2 cups. This is my minimum. If I come by the kitchen before the beep, I will drink water anyways, and reset the timer.

So, yesterday we were watching a few episodes of the show "Heavy", yet another one of those "Let's see how much weight the fat guys can lose in a year"-type of shows. It's pretty good, actually. I get very inspired by these shows, as do Wife, and I like watching them while I am on my exercise bike.

Yesterday, I realized how many skeletons these people have in their closets, and I realized the need for a psychiatrist for many of them. It made me wonder about myself and so many others here on FatSecret.

I think that many of us are NOT just fat because we love food. Too much food damages us, and we know it perfectly well. Still, we accept damaging ourselves for no apparent reason. To put it in perspective, we don't just start hitting ourself on our fingers with hammers just because there is a lot of hammers around. Right? :)

Anyways, I think for many of us to fully succeed in weight loss, we need to find out what the deeper reasons are for us damaging ourselves. I'm still not sure what I was hiding from, maybe just lack of confidence? I know that it's gone with the weight loss, and I am MUCH more confident now. I have people pointing it out now and then.

I looked at one of my older photos, and it struck me while I watched the Heavy show. Many of the men there have facial hair. So did I. Well, I still do, but now it's very different. It's not hiding my face.

I realized that I was hiding behind my beard. I didn't want the world to see the fat kingkeld, as he was, and the beard was something to hide behind.

Maybe there are many other obstacles that needs to be cleared away, but I think that I am getting there. I know one thing that has helped me doing this immensely: Journaling.

Writing out my thoughts on a daily basis clears though issues away. As long as I write honestly, and isn't afraid of what is being put in the journal, then it's all therapy. This works brilliantly. I'm sure some of you guys who's been reading for a longer time will have noticed the changes. I know I do. I know my surrounding do.

The main difference between this weight loss journey and my previous ones is a simple, but obvious one: This time, I didn't try. This time, I set out to DO. It's just like Master Yoda says. "Do not try. Do." This actually works. If you say to yourself that you're gonna try again, then you imply the risk of failure. If you tell yourself that you're gonna do this, then you imply success and accomplishment. See the difference?

So those of you out there still trying. Stop trying. Start doing. Trust me, it works. No more "I'm gonna try to lose some weight". Start thinking "I'm losing weight - I'll have all this excess weight off before you know it!". IT will completely shift your view on things, and it will make the value of doing it much bigger.

Anyways, enough rambling for today. I have an exercise bike waiting, and Wife wants to watch some shows with me. It's a good combination on a cold winter day. Later, we'll go walking, visit some friends and get some fresh air.

Today, I am thankful
- for eggs, rye bread, jalapenos, mustard and ham making an excellent breakfast.
- 5 am workout on a day off work. What a nice long day this is.
- coffee (BHA SALUTE!)
- a new weight loss.
- Christmas break.

Oh, and I almost forgot: Since so many of you ask how to post pictures, I made a little tutorial which I put in the forum. This should clarify things.

Take care out there in post Christmas land. Life is good!

181.9 lb Lost so far: 159.8 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed 100%.

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1328 kcal

Fat: 52.02g | Prot: 89.48g | Carb: 116.03g.   Breakfast: jalapenos, Rye Bread (Reduced Calorie), Sliced Ham (Extra Lean), Egg. Lunch: Grilled Chicken (Skin Not Eaten), garden salad, pita bread. Dinner: Pork Backribs, mixed vegetables. Snacks/Other: extra lean ham, Free Laekkerbar, ota, kakaois. more...

3435 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Bicycling (leisurely) - <10/mph - 2 hours and 30 minutes, Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 30 minutes, Sitting - 11 hours, Standing - 1 hour, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...