Rckc's Journal, 06 May 2016

Well, there it is. 5 lbs up. Ever since March have had problems with binging. Would do good then for no reason whatsoever, start scavenging thru the kitchen for something to eat. Maybe once, twice a week. Time to stop. Take control. I know HOW to do it, just need to do it. Sounds simple, huh? Why does it have to be so damn hard?
155.0 lb Lost so far: 120.0 lb.    Still to go: 18.6 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.
gaining 1.0 lb a week

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I know just what you mean. I spent from Sep to Dec 2015 overeating in a way that was almost self abuse. I knew the damage I was doing but couldn't stop myself then one day the switch got flicked and here I am again 20 lbs down and the discipline of a nun. Don't beat yourself up, it happens. As a way forward though could you try to have one day of carefully pre planned healthy eating. I usually find that the better I am eating the better I feel going forward. One day may be enough to get you out of this funk. Keeping my fingers crossed for you. 
06 May 16 by member: Mamachickpea
I'm prone to do the same thing, almost every weekend. Wise words from our friends though--put it in the past, everyday is a new day. My strategy lately has been exercising my faith where my weight, food addiction, and self-image are concerned. Helps me to focus on something more important. Hope u find ur focus! 
06 May 16 by member: dvapr8
LOL! Not laughing AT you RC but the meme is funny as hell. Take a look at the days you binge and try to discover what sets you off on a scavenging trip. Discovering your triggers, emotional, environmental, food-type goes a long ways towards controlling binges. Recently I noticed that I would have issues with cravings after consuming a diet Lipton citrus/green tea beverage. I would grab one of those from the corner store when I was on the run and out of water. It set off a cascade of cravings for me, I stopped buying them and have not had any issues since. Sometimes it's a smell, sometimes it's a phone call. Becoming aware is your best defense. Beating yourself up about slips is also a trigger, guilt breeds guilt and it turns into a vicious circle of self sabotage. Positive affirmations and loving self talk are so much better than our typical rants of "Why are you so stupid you big fat lazy cow, can't you practice some self control?" We are so into scolding ourselves it's not even funny and the damage that self pummeling does is severe. Our bodies are doing the best they can with what we give them. They need loving support and nurturing, just like our children. We give it to our children but we have serious issues giving it to ourselves. 
06 May 16 by member: debrafrederick
rcky don't cut yourself on the glass!  
06 May 16 by member: bellcurvz
Yes, when I first saw glass scales I thought it would be all too tempting - not to break it with my weight, as the image suggests, but to smash it in frustration. And we know it's not the scales' fault... Here you are, and that's a sign that sanity has returned. Or at least some semblance of it that you can build on and get back into the swing of self-control. Or let's not use that annoying term, let's call it "normal eating" because we are always utilizing self control when we are eating wrong as we choose food and feed it to ourselves. Now you can make different choices that help you be your best.  
06 May 16 by member: trackin64
You've inspired me so much. You make it look easy and seem possible. I haven't been at it that long, but your the first person I met in here and the first person to reach a goal. You can do it! 
06 May 16 by member: irregularwaves
You got this! Way to get back on the horse!! 
06 May 16 by member: Mistybenner

     
 

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