madaboutmoose's Journal, 24 November 2009

even though you are a funky monkey we still love ya...trying to convence our brains that the numbers dont matter is hard and it takes time...be patient with yourself...have a great t.day and don't stress... 

Could be hormones making you feel off. I have naughty ones that make me feel WAY down every 28 days pretty much like clockwork. If nothing else, keeping track of them keeps my mind off my scale! 

hoping the dark cloud passes quickly so you can enjoy your timr off. 

(~: My buddies always make me smile. How much time do you think it takes for us to convince our brains that the numbers don't matter so much? 10+ months seems like enough already!! ARGHHH!!! You could be right Abba ... I was feeling rather teary eyed yesterday evening. It could indeed be hormones. Damn hormones. Fortunately I have this place to come to for encouragement, support, and reality checks! I have to tell you the drive into work this morning was absolutely beautiful. Just enough snow to dust all of the trees but not enough to make the roads too hazardous. The deciduous trees, shed of leaves, but with white branches are so pretty. I'm going to buck up and remember how far I've come. Numbers are so frustrating. I so much WANT to be in the 170's for maintenance rather than the 180's but it might not be a reality for me. Drat ... what if my husband is right? I hate it when I'm not right. LOL! (~; 

Numbers are definitely frustrating and I think even more so when you think you've done everything right and they still go up. If your clothes stll feel fine, just accept its the number that are crazy and not you. I'm dead jealous of the snow. All we've got is wet, wet and more wet. The bare branches look stark and black and even the evergreens are hanging with water. Just think of those 4 days you've got off and the visit from your son :) 

Oh no, snow. Maybe that is why you are funky today. Tomorrow you will be feeling up again. 

I know its hard, but maybe its time to put that scale of yours deep into a closet where it can only come out for a visit once a week. Yeah yeah, its something I need to tell myself too, but I think its important for you to do. Give it a try, it can't hurt!!!!! 

MOTG - I was thinking that myself but it scares me. What if I make it an excuse to pig out? That's what I've always done before. I'll think about it ... but I'm nearly in an anxiety attack as it is!! LOL!! If I can't start looking more at a weekly average I think I'll have to try it. UGH ... I HATE funky days!! 

NOOOOOOOOOO!! Hey Funk, we were both doing so well, **sigh lol I woke up a little higher today and I tried really hard not to let it bother me. I don't get why we are suppose to ignore numbers so much... numbers DO measure us, and tell us so much. We can't let them affect our moods, I get that... I think if you really want to maintain in your 170s, you will have to work on losing to get there (lower). I worked on being under 120, I haven't gotten to my lowest yet, but I know where my roof is now. I have to weigh daily to watch it. I have to correct it if its wrong, its the life I choose to live now. I can't go back to old ways. I NEVER stepped on a scale outside a drs office. Not cause I was scared, cause I was never 'watching it' 'worried' .... I wanted to be worry free for Thanksgiving but I know I will be upset if I am too bloated for my bday lol oi vey. We just have to realize we CAN and KNOW how to make it up. YOU are very far from the 200s, we both are far from our highest. Its just a funk, just a funk... it will pass :) 

Cindy ... you are right of course. The numbers are important but should not RULE my mood. It is ONE measure, not the ONLY measure, yet still it is an important one. I'm not sure how to work on getting lower. As it is I am typically consuming below what the calculations say I need to MAINTAIN 180 lbs!! And, quite frankly ... I get hungry. Okay, some of the evening snacking could go. That isn't always hunger-based but sometimes it is. Definitely FUNK "freaking undesirable neurotic krap" (okay I couldn't think of a 'k' word!!). My hubby tells me over and over and over that I have lost enough and that while 175 might be "touchable" it is not maintainable for my height and frame. Maybe he is right. I don't know. I DO KNOW that I need to keep moving along ... and if I can get through the holidays and still be in the low to mid 180's range I have been successful. It took a while to get under the 120's didn't it? Maybe that is where I am ... very slow ... and eventually I will get there. Thanks for the pep talk though ... I needed it!! 

Perhaps it's the mood ruling the numbers; not the numbers ruling the mood. This mood WILL pass- they always do. It's because of those mood fluctuations that I have a love/hate relationship with the holiday season. I love the highs...but I dread the lows that follow. 

LOL at your FUNK acronym. I will definitely remember that one. Hope your day got better. I too was hoping to be "low" before the holidays. I keep trying to remind myself that when I first set my goals a few weeks ago, I wanted to be at 144 come Jan 1. And I am there now. But of course now my brain is all about needing to be lower, lower, lower. Daily weigh ins are helpful YET they can so quickly take over the day. I read what you wrote on Cindy's page about needing the skill of not letting the scale take over your brain. So true. I need that skill, too. Hope the scale doesn't take over time with your son and your days off. Lock that thing away for a couple days!  

Correction, I am -almost- to that goal now. I am discounting the 2 lbs of bloat in my belly. :)  

It took me forever to get off 124-126 lol God it was hard work! Determination is all I can say. I struggled and was upset about it for so long, but I tried to focus on other goals. Work outs, new cardio classes, building muscle. You should try that or a new hobbie, maybe shoveling snow lol You really have to trick you body into losing again, and eat the right foods so you aren't hungry. I was HUNGRY at 1400 cal when I lowered them I chose wisely and found myself more satisfied. It gets difficult when you hear loved ones telling you you are at a good weight, or possibly can't be thinner. You are just at a set point, (idk what they call it) our bodies have never been this thin so its just adjusting and/or you are enjoying mainatanance Idk. I like to call it rebelling. lol We know we can cheat, or go on vacation and we will get back at it afterwards, when we realize there wasn't too much harm or we correct the scale right away, we seem to keep rebelling and get stuck in this cycle. I lost when Hubby was away so had time to focus more on my and my diet I suppose... I switched things up at the gym then too because of my schedule. If you are fine at this weight you are fine, you are mainaining very well... if you are not, talk w/ hub and tell him 5 lbs is doable, you want it, need it, and have to believe it... he needs to support this :) Hope this helps  

@ Beets ... yes I am locking the brain away!!! I feel much better today!! @ Cindy ... thanks. It does help. I figured out I want to "maintain" through the holidays ... if I lose great if I don't fine ... then with the New Year I'll knuckle down, buckle down, mix up my work out ... foods ... something and see if my body would let go of just a few more pounds!!! 

I am glad I turned the page back to read about your battle - NOT that I am glad that the battle exists. As you know - I too - am conflicted about the numbers game. It sounds easy to say but we (you and I) must employ our creative and intuitive minds to CREATE an INTERNAL SCALE of ITS OWN KIND - so that how we feel from the inside out has more WEIGHT - no pun intended - than the number on the external scale. Does that suggetsion make sense?