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SPRING RECOMP 2021 - DAY 39 -- **UPDATE**
REST DAY
You know those mornings when you wake up and whatever has been troubling you, holding you back, is past? Divorce final. Fever broken. Charges dropped. Office contents boxed in the garage. Door locks changed.
When the very thing that has defined your reality, seemingly forever, is, in an instant, gone? When that which has consumed you, forcibly preoccupied your consciousness and your days, is, of a sudden, vanished? With only still waters, clear skies, and newfound possibility ahead? A shift so seismic it demands you change your entire mode of engagement with the world?
When a beautiful new reality coalesces in your mind as you awake and jolts you upright to immediate action? Your story at once finished and unwritten. Excuses vapor. Bounding from your bed, the ghost of Christmas future hard on your heels, with the urgency of Ebenezer Scrooge on Christmas morning?
You know that morning?!?
That morning is my wish for you. Regrettably, I will not yet be joining you. My unwelcome lesson in patience continues unabated.
Still huffing oil of oregano and snorkeling faux sea water. Ice pick, night elves, have for the moment joined Ex wife on sabbatical. Thankfully. Intake and scale reasonably controlled. Weather perfect. FS support 10/10. Attitude mid.
Onward.
**UPDATE**
Only a fool could believe night elves take sabbatical. Their stealth activities of last night include, but may not be limited to, flooding the fridge with the contents of the tea jug.
Yesterday #1 asked me if I knew how many times I said "God Fuckin Dammit" during morning chores. The answer, supposedly, is "14." Seems high, but ok. Dirty dishes, dirty dish sculpture, unreplenished ice bin, empty tea jug, dirty socks on the dining room table, unseen cheese gift mid kitchen floor; guest dog hair on the couch, disposal clatter each and every use, coat left on floor...it can add up...
This morning the count was ZERO. I say this not to boast, but to ensure the kharmic wheel is aware that, you know, mission kinda somewhat accomplished with the whole patience thingy; progress at least. Feelin ready to get back to being well, or at least well-ish, maybe occasionally getting a little shit done, a lift day here or there. But, you know, only when YOU feel the time is right. Obviously. Not a minute sooner. I wouldn't consider it.
Quote du jour
“Come what may, all bad fortune is to be conquered by endurance.”
— Virgil
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201.4 lb
Lost so far: 10.6 lb.
Still to go: 16.4 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 20 May 2021:
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1421 kcal
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Fat: 80.59g | Prot: 82.72g | Carb: 91.14g.
Lunch: White Rice, Red Onions, Manny's Taco Flour Tortillas, Hellmann's Real Mayonnaise, Kraft Finely Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese, HEB Cantaloupe Chunks, Shoulder Pork Roast (Lean Only Eaten). Snacks/Other: Almonds , 365 Organic Crunchy Peanut Butter, Strawberries, Butter (Salted), Bagel. more...
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steady weight
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20 May 21 by member: adefwebserver
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jimmie not to get all weird but I appreciate you man. your real. no filters or bs just you. thanks man. you encourage and strengthen me. so thank you. keep crushing life!!
20 May 21 by member: HeBrewZ
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How authentic. I needed this. Thank you.
20 May 21 by member: yfritz
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it's a rainbow 🌈 hidden till you find it then the pot of gold good luck
20 May 21 by member: ridemariel
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I have been struggling with some emotonal issues for almost a year, out in front, but deeply buried for decades. In recent weeks I have had a breakthrough of sorts by finally telling a close confidant and it feels as if the weight of the world has lifted . I woke up this morning with new thoughts of a better future, not one of dread. I could not have read your post at a better time. Thank you.
20 May 21 by member: Lippybeth
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Nicely said! Many of us can relate to that!
20 May 21 by member: anajansen
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20 May 21 by member: Sarah1950
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Wishing that blessed morning for you too Jimmie, also please drink that tumeric tea I think it will help. Blessings 🙏🏽💕
20 May 21 by member: Daughter of the_King
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Ice pick and night elves, eh? Congratulations to you on your divorce, my dear. Here’s to the endless possibilities of your future!!
20 May 21 by member: KayBuckaroo
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That morning is my wish for you too. They're rare but we can hope!
20 May 21 by member: erikahollister
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Eloquent and inspiring. Thanks.
20 May 21 by member: robbeck1
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Good quote to end it up...thanks
20 May 21 by member: ScottH
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Night Elves aside - you have a great attitude and that is incredibly valuable. This helps me when I am in the midst of the storms -
“Serenity is not freedom from the storm; but peace amid the storm.” –S A Jefferson-Wright
20 May 21 by member: tahoebrun
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@hebrews All good, my brother. Appreciate the kind words. Def being crushed ATM, but so it goes...
20 May 21 by member: jimmiepop
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@lippyb. Thanks for sharing. Appreciate the kind words and wish you all the best as you move forward a bit lighter of spirit.
20 May 21 by member: jimmiepop
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@etten I'm on it! Waiting on Mr. Bezos...Thank you!
20 May 21 by member: jimmiepop
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@kay. I've been divorced and custodial parent for 15+ at this point. Still thankful for that every day, but it's been long enough that I've got zero beef with the Ex. She, on the other hand, after over a decade of solid coparenting, is now giving me the silent treatment because I will not force #2 to live with her against his will. That is the "sabbatical" referenced. It's pretty great, actually.
Yes, I am the house bitch atm, and it is pissing me the fuck off. That said, the house is going to be empty soon enough. Perhaps I would be well advised to hire a cleaning service, chill out, and make the most of these last months that I will ever have all three generations together under one roof like this.
20 May 21 by member: jimmiepop
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Appreciate you all. The quotes, personal challenges, warm wishes, and positive vibes shared are pretty terrific. Thank you!
20 May 21 by member: jimmiepop
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Oh gosh, you had me going there for a bit. I thought you were feeling free and re-energized. Just remember this too shall pass! Hoping every day you will feel better, and better!
20 May 21 by member: bearnoggin
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Oh Jimmie, wish the first part has reality. I was right with Bear, thinking all was right in your world. There is always something to be thankful for, we just have to squint some days to see it. Wishing you good days ahead. ❤👍
20 May 21 by member: _bec_ca
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