davidsprincess's Journal, 28 March 2021

I have been overeating for the last four days and the thing is- I don't really mind having done it. I guess I need to figure out what I want to do. I think I look good- sometimes REALLY good 🤩- sometimes good enough😐. I feel very healthy. I'm in a size 8/10 and if I had skin removal, I would assume I would be in a six. My muscles look fab at the gym💪🏻🏋🏻‍♂️ (due to the extra calories) and so I don't know if I will ever be 165 or less. I definitely am at the highest weight I will allow myself to go and I will rein it back in today but looking back at the last year- it is just a wavy line of maintaining the same numbers. My body has recomped- so it isn't without progress. I guess I'll just keep lifting, eating what I want, and not getting higher than today's weight and see what happens. Maybe not giving a shit will help me do better because the more I want to and the closer I am, the more I just sabotage. I will trick my other personality (the rebel side) by taking out any kind of goal. If I don't know the goal, then I can't mess it up when I get closer to it. That is the most planned out- not having a plan- ever. ;)
185.0 lb Lost so far: 64.0 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entry for 28 March 2021:
2616 kcal Fat: 114.30g | Prot: 118.59g | Carb: 275.39g.   Breakfast: Butter, Sunbeam King Thin Enriched Bread, Equate High Performance Protein Shake - Chocolate, Frigo Light String Cheese, Great Value Saltine Crackers, Coffee. Lunch: Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey Ice Cream, Banzai California Roll, Kraft Velveeta Cheesy Bowls Ultimate Cheeseburger Mac. Dinner: Lemon Meringue Pie, Hershey's Zero Candy Bar, Kirkland Signature Farmed Atlantic Salmon. more...
gaining 25.2 lb a week

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Clearly, you battle with your id. 
28 Mar 21 by member: Les Girth
I know you like honesty and people who say it like it is, right? I have to make sure before I say more...😓 
28 Mar 21 by member: wifey9707
DP— there is nothing wrong with hitting the pause button.Diet fatigue is real. Pause and try out your current weight. Can you sustain it even if something happens that you can’t hit the gym as often and as long as you do. Could you sustain a lower weight at all without deprivation and frustration. Reassess in a couple of weeks and see where you are and what you are comfortable with. 
28 Mar 21 by member: Kenna Morton
People come up with a number they think they should weigh..... and it typically is based on an old high school weight, college weight, wedding weight. I did the same but based it on a comment a gyno said to me 25 years ago when I was 35 ! 138 and he said "perfect". Truth is being at that weight I was going to the gym 6 days a week and eating a no fat, little protein high carb diet. Go figure. I have been a yoyo since then... every time I get in the 140"s I boomerang back up to mid 160's. I have come to realize that my body isn't naturally that weight anymore. So for me if I can be 149 that is good. It was an unrealistic goal to get back to that weight. Medically speaking those 10 lbs won't make a difference health wise. That is what matters. Good luck with your journey ! 
28 Mar 21 by member: crazycatchick
You said it so well and have found your groove. I think sometimes we place too much emphasis on an ideal weight like “all will be great when I hit 165lb” but in reality nothing changes lol. This past year helped me slow down and obsess less about exercising and calories. I trusted myself enough to ease up. You are so routined with exercise and know what to do I fully believe you can go into more or less “maintenance” between a comfortable range that may not be 165, you are healthy and strong. I love following your honest and candid posts. And those 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻😍😍😍🔥🔥🔥 
28 Mar 21 by member: Lowkeylife
Wifey- You can say whatever you want. I have looked at this from many angles- including that I am just being fat and lazy. You can't probably say much worse to me. Well- you COULD but I know you won't. ;)  
28 Mar 21 by member: davidsprincess
Thanks, Kenna- That's the thing- am I going to be lifting an hour a day forEVER? Probably not and then what happens? I need to be able to eat a normal amount of calories to maintain when not exercising daily (or less). 
28 Mar 21 by member: davidsprincess
Crazy- where have you been? I agree- I don't know where I came up with the number- just trying to pick a middle range of what google says is the ideal bodyweight for someone 5'8-5'9". I remember when I, also- went for a pap and when I said I wanted to weigh 170 (this was back in the early 2000's- the lady said she thought that would be too thin on me. Funny how people like to tell you what is the best number.  
28 Mar 21 by member: davidsprincess
DP, how tall are you? We weigh about the same and I'm a size 14/16. BTW, I think our bodies decide on slowing down or plateauing to readjust.  
28 Mar 21 by member: CarbAbuser
Yeah-LKL- I think in many ways/weighs we are very similar. And it's true- I always thought if I got to a normal weight that life would be without problems. Isn't that strange? I still have my share of problems and I am glad I am not going through them while morbidly obese to make them worse- but definitely understand what you mean by- "nothing changes". Anyhow- off to church and life. Happy Sunday, friends! 
28 Mar 21 by member: davidsprincess
Lchfjo- I am 5'8 1/2" tall. with some muscle. Thanks, Drag for your support!  
28 Mar 21 by member: davidsprincess
Funny thing is that I just want to be under 179, closer to 175, that’s my mental number. When I hit 172 in November while home with broken foot I felt like I won 😆 Except nothing changed: I was still the same chick as I was at 182 but with a broken foot 🤣 
28 Mar 21 by member: Lowkeylife
Thanks DP. I guess I need to grow 3 1/2" taller, lol 
28 Mar 21 by member: CarbAbuser
LMAO- LKL! I know what you mean! Yes Lchfjo- You can do it! I believe in you! 😆  
28 Mar 21 by member: davidsprincess
Ok. I’m safe. 😂😂 I’d never insult you. You’re one of my favs! Besides who else takes their bonus and sends me Kodiak? Awww DP, I’ll always appreciate that so much. You went over and above...❤️ Ok, I’m no expert in anything, well besides cleaning lolol! 🤪 But I’ve thought for a long time you did not need to be 165. If you’re in a 8/10 now, 30 more pounds and you’d look too scrawny, even with muscles at that height. Just my opinion. Guess we’d all have to see it first to really know. I also think you should up your calories and maintain where you are. I think like me, you’d just enjoy it, no pressure. And the whatever happens scale wise, happens. I think, again my opinion, if you ate more on a regular basis to feed your muscles, you wouldn’t need low cal days to ‘make up’ for the high 3000-5000 days. Get what I’m saying? I think a higher number daily would prevent high high high then you eating low a couple yo compensate. Idk. Just my thoughts and now I can’t see what I’m tying so I’ll end it here. Don’t hurt me. I loved yah!! 😘🤜🏻😁😁 
28 Mar 21 by member: wifey9707
*20 more pounds 
28 Mar 21 by member: wifey9707
And like Blondie is saying, I feel the same now at nearly 130 that I did at 140. Numbers really are ridiculous!! 🙄🙄🙄 
28 Mar 21 by member: wifey9707
DP, you texting in church? tut tut tut 😂😂 
28 Mar 21 by member: wifey9707
If I've taken one thing from this awesome community; It's that this is not a linear journey and we are often far too hard on ourselves. As long as you are happy and healthy, who cares what that damn scale says.  
28 Mar 21 by member: acd36
You’ll be OK! Maintaining - that is hard to do in-itself! Going to the gym will keep you healthy and strong and hopefully happy. Lowkey is right, even when you hit goal not that much changes, life doesn’t become heaven, she made me laugh along with Ichfjo!😆 I am 5’10, and at 185 I was with my husband at a fishing tournament and a young guy kept telling his friend what a knockout I was, in my head I was floored for I felt big. So just live and be the best you can be to yourself for yourself. I am amazed Diablo is called obese on that chart, INSANITY! 😡 Be nice to Wifey I know you will, and have a blessed Passion Sunday!🌺 
28 Mar 21 by member: Shrewdness

     
 

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