8hunter6's Journal, 09 March 2020

I've been sick since February 20th. it's hard to breathe and I'm taking steroids and a steroid inhaler plus a bunch of other things. I cough so hard I nearly faint. so obviously I've been more concerned with that than diet... hard to plan meals when I'm so tired I cant get out of bed.... I miss the person I was in 2016. before the pain and sickness got worse.... before a cold could knock me out for a month.... I'm so tired.

with any exercise I feel like it takes days to recover. so much fatigue I cant think straight. ... hard to stand long enough to cook a meal.....

but "no cure" doesn't mean "no treatment".... I have to make myself try again and keep trying .... up hill battle or not.... I atleast want to just feel ok.... be able to do normal things without hitting the fatigue wall or the pain wall.... then get stuck in the loop of pain meds and wanting to think clearly...

I have to try.

I have to try to eat healthy... to lose 15% body weight so I can have surgery safely.

258.6 lb Lost so far: 17.2 lb.    Still to go: 58.6 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.