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Welcome Wednesday!
Down another 1.8 lbs this morning, bringing me to 185.4 ... back at the top of the range I'd like to maintain in. I could feel it last night. My rings are looser on my fingers. I have also been hungrier but not in a negative way ... and I just felt like I was closer to my range. Overall, I'm pleased. I did think this morning ... but the weekend is coming and we are going out, and it usually takes me three days to recover from one meal out!!! And then, I stopped myself and reminded myself that I still have today, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday until we go out to eat like I typically do. It is a conscious choice I make to go out to dinner on the weekend and to consume a few alcoholic beverages ... so ... no worries. All is well. What is, is. I could choose not to drink. I could use to eat something lower calorie. I could choose not to go out. It is all about balance, patience, acceptance, focus, and an ongoing journey that will not end as long as I am sucking breath!!
The challenge today is an afternoon 'snack potluck' at a former colleagues home ... a belated celebration of her 'involuntary' retirement earlier this year. In a documentary I recently watched I learned why potlucks and buffets are such a challenge. Apparently our brains automatically eat more when variety is presented to us!!! And I thought I was just weak!! They did a study where they put up a sign that read "FREE" and two bowls of candy. The candy was identical except that one bowl was all one color and the other was mult-colored. At the end of the experiment the multi-colored bowl of candy was empty and the solid colored bowl of candy still had candy remaining! Interesting. What will be my strategy today at the potluck? Not sure. I am thinking EAT NOTHING ... is the only safe choice. I shouldn't be hungry ... it is after lunch!! I think I'll take myself a protein bar and one of my diet Coke with Splenda and have that be my snack. Of course I have to bring something. I am thinking hummus and rice crackers (for my gluten free colleagues). I can have a few of those if I choose and just say "NO" to everything else? We'll see how that works out.
Another day ... another opportunity to be grateful ...
1. This morning I am grateful for my husband, who knows me well enough and is wise enough to give me a little "space" when I am "off" ... we chatted this morning and he asked me "what's up?" and I shared that I've just not been feeling myself lately ... nothing is really "wrong" I've just been cranky, irritable, emotional and overwrought ... probably hormonal. He replied, I just wanted to make sure I hadn't pissed you off but I sort of figured ... that's why I've been giving you "space" ... and then reassured me that EVERYTHING wasn't on my shoulders alone and that we would go out this weekend and have fun and get some things done at home we need to do. Am I blessed or what????
2. I am grateful that I do not cheat, sneak around on, or lie to my husband and that he does not cheat, sneak around on, or lie to me. Recent stories about a couple we know just makes me grateful that isn't an issue for us ... too much stress!!!
3. I am grateful for being able to hear some really difficult things at work yesterday and be present for someone who is really hurting emotionally from an unexpected and unplanned loss. It was incredibly emotional and draining and yet I felt so honored to be able to create a safe place for her to share those emotions. It is so rare I think that we have opportunities to let our feelings be KNOWN without someone trying to make us feel better, change the subject, or place some kind of judgment into the mix. I am grateful I can do that on occasion.
4. I continue to be grateful for the great outdoors, the cool of the morning air, the smells and sights I see every day.
5. Finally, I am grateful for the awareness, even if I'm not completely comfortable with the reality of it yet, that this journey of maintaining a reasonable weight goes on and on and on. Slowly, I am becoming more accustomed to the idea ... slowly I find myself more at peace with never being 'done.'
Time to fill up my coffee cup and get a few things done this morning before my first visit at 10 am, then staff meeting, and snack potluck. I have a couple of errands to run today too. Have a wonderful Wednesday. Thank you for your encouragement and understanding that I am NOT always "up" and accepting me just the way that I am. Kindness goes a long way, both towards ourselves and others. Let's continue to practice it ... I know I will.
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185.4 lb
Lost so far: 73.8 lb.
Still to go: 0.4 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 21 July 2010:
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1141 kcal
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Fat: 33.26g | Prot: 107.17g | Carb: 128.82g.
Breakfast: Fiber One Oats & Chocolate, Kraft Singles Fat Free Swiss, La Tortilla Factory Low Carb Tortilla, large egg. Lunch: white turkey meat, cottage cheese, Kraft Singles Fat Free Swiss, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Blue Bunny Light Yogurt. Dinner: Lighten Up Balsamic Vinagrette Dressing, Original Iceberg Garden Salad (Zip), red onion, avocado, apple, Feta Cheese, Craisins, tomato, cucumber, boneless chicken breast. more...
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2706 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Pilates - 50 minutes, Desk Work - 9 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Resting - 4 hours and 10 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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losing 12.6 lb a week
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Great pullback on the chart moose. I would just record things and make constant adjustments as I go along. For the potluck I was thinking monodiet, pick just one thing that you like and that's it. The mind is fickle, no way to really change that but we can adjust our focus. Anyway, I hope you feel better all around soon.
21 Jul 10 by member: information
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I love rice crackers! I think that's great potluck plan. Maybe someone will bring fruit or veggie crudites? Those are always safe so long as you don't go nuts on dip. :) I am glad to hear that you bringing it back into a range that you feel ok with and that things continue to be groovy with your husband. Happy Wednesday!
21 Jul 10 by member: erikag
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First of all Carol none of us are always up. We are human and our emotions change from day to day. So it's definitely not just you. I have been in a bit of a funk lately too. It is wonderful that you and your hubby are so close and can share things together...problems and situations always seem easier when you have someone to share them with. I am still drinking coffee and doing nothing. I am hoping soon I will find the motivation to move my body. lol Enjoy your day and the potluck. You will do fine. I just know it. Just don't look if theres cake! lol Talk to you later.
21 Jul 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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I'm in the same boat as you - I'm doing well right now, but I have a girls nite out planned for Friday. We are not eating, just going to a bar - but the question remains, do I drink? How much do I drink? What will it do to my diet? It sucks to think about sometimes, but you don't want to NEVER go out, right? That wouldn't make sence! I think, do what you want, eat what you want, drink what you want, but make sure to keep it to one meal or outing every week or two. You'll be fine - Have a great Hump Day!!!
21 Jul 10 by member: MomofTwoGirls
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Moose, it usually takes me 3 days to tackle one bad meal too!!! good for you on the loss;)
21 Jul 10 by member: Baileyboo
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I will avoid looking in the direction of any sweets AND refrain from the 'just one bite' trap!!!
21 Jul 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Moose, stategy for pot-lucks is something I have been working on as the summer months have been difficult due to barbecues, pot-lucks, social gatherings etc. That documentary was eye opening for me too. Two weeks ago I took my daughters for a lunch at a restaurant called Ruby Tuesdays. When I walked in they had this salad bar to die for as it was so beautiful with all the colors and selections. I thought about it and decided to order a salad off the menu as I knew the variety would probably present a problem for me as it contained many things that could get me into trouble plus it was "all you can eat & variety". I have a neighborhood pot luck coming up on National Night out, I am coming prepared with one of those cute plastic 1 cup and 1/2 cup bowls and will make sure my portions are in check and will probably choose only my most favorite menu samplings. Mrs. Gorrells famous peach cobbler is a must and I will allow myself but will watch my portion. For example I love pasta salad so I will put the salad in the 1/2 serving cup and put it on my plate. Jeez I really am not sure how to combat these things as I don't want to make a production, I just want to be aware of what I am doing. Anyway, I love your grateful list as it is so very thoughtful and reminds me how important the power of gratitude is. THANKS! Towanda!!
21 Jul 10 by member: Lisa Online
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Lisa that is a great idea. You never realize how much you are consuming at buffets and I think I will try that for the next one I go to. Who cares what other people think.
21 Jul 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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Lol, I appreciate all of you guys as this process of learning and doing is so much easier will all the support I have been getting. TOWANDA!!
21 Jul 10 by member: Lisa Online
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Carol ok the first dare is done with not very good results. First I went on and a in 20 pages there was not one. Believe it or not. So I went to customize clicking off the items you wanted...you know education, likes, dislikes, job, all that stuff and guess what? After all that not one came up. It said there was 0. That was pretty depressing. lol Guess I am one of a kind or there are none like me..lol Next dare???
21 Jul 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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uh ... Cathy ... me thinks there may be MORE than one place to look!! I think you may need to look in the Buffalo area for activities ... next DARE!!!
21 Jul 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Hi Moose, I enjoyed your journal today. I think I just love to see older couples inlove (as proof as it DOES exist) so many of them don't around me. Anyway, kudos on controling your chart! I aslo have a potluck today, ugh, asian food. White rice, fried rice and soy sauce scare me NOW! So my way of handling is eyeying everything on the menu (we all fill it out in advance) make sure I bring something right (I made knock off PF Changs lettuce wraps!) and eat a tiny bit of other stuff. My prob (is not so much the portion control now) its the guitl of not tasting a coworkers food. Something they may be excited to share. And in my culture we show love w/ food, so nt getting seconds is odd. We've mastered that at home but at an office full of ppl asking me if I eat... ugh. We shall see how it goes!
21 Jul 10 by member: cindyshine
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Being vegetarian takes the work out of social gatherings like that as generally there aren't many choices :) I will either bring something I made myself (my homemade pasta salad is oft requested despite lack of meat) or choose one item that looks the best to me and just have some of that. I also saw that study about variety and it makes much sense! We want to try one of each. Anyway, maybe I'll start telling people I'm vegan and then even MORE choices will be "off limits". I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings either, but to me that was one of my problems. I do a very kind "No thank you" and that's it. I don't feel the need to explain myself anymore. As Bill Cosby said "I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody" :)
21 Jul 10 by member: k8yk
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Update ... I did pretty well at the snacky potluck. I did have probably three small bites of carrot cake but actually threw the rest of the piece in the garbage!!! I brought hummus and gluten free chips so had a little of that and someone else brought veggies so I focused primarily on the veggies with hummus and a couple bites of two different salads. Quite proud of myself ...
21 Jul 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Nicely done darlin'...!! And absolutely LOVE your journal today!! Congrats on the loss...I'm hopeful for the morning weigh in...!!! hugggggs
21 Jul 10 by member: drd3775
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Yes, ditto what Cindy said. Whenever I see couples older than 40 making eyes at each other, holding hands and enjoying each other's company I partly assume it's a post-divorce thing or they are having an affair. HA! That sounds so messed up. I guess it is. Anyway. Moving on. I like what you said aobut going out to dinner and having a few drinks. I've been thinking lately about my neverending quest to stop eating sugar/wheat and wondering if that's the life I want to commit to, or feel bad about not living--a life without homemade cookies and pies? Hmm. (Yeah, yeah, you can do it w/out sugar and wheat but they don't taste the same.)
21 Jul 10 by member: beets_yum
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As you know ... I am well over 40 and I must tell you still very much 'in love' ... probably more so than I was when we met at 29. I too look at "older" couples and am touched when I see an elderly couple holding hands, talking, dancing ... it does last, it grows, and deepens and can touch you deeper than I ever imagined. Of course there are times we annoy the crap out of each other too!!! LOL!!! He is truly my best friend and I am his. We also really happen to enjoy each other's company and 'get' each other ... in ways we've each never been 'gotten' before. Sappy? I don't think so. Deeply fortunate? Yes. But we also work at it and see each other through difficult times. So ... here's to each of my 'young' buddies and their husbands, wives, and significant others ... may you enjoy a long meaningful relationship with someone who 'gets' you!!!
21 Jul 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Hi Moose! I've read your after-party journal, your funky tuesday journal, and your I feel good wednesday journal.... But never had time to comment. As usual your words are pure wisdom for me, and I thank you for writing them everyday. I'm glad you did well at the potluck, it seems very difficult to resist all those tempting foods. I don't like it when you don't feel good, not at all. But somehow those days make us appreciate more the positive side of life! Take care!
21 Jul 10 by member: jessyline
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Yeah on the weight loss...and good job at the potluck!! :) it's amazing how time (mind) consuming FOOD is now. I am constantly thinking...where are we going...what will be served....will I choose wisely....UGH!!! I guess over time it gets a wee bit easier!!!
And I cannot not say...it is SO nice to hear of you and your husbands love. I too am blessed with a great guy! Only took the second marriage to get it right....but SO glad I did. Since both of us were married before...we brought into this relationship a LOT of knowledge. Which is good. We KNOW now...problems need to be snipped in the bud!!! And we too also "get each other".....and I love that!!! And I am glad you...and I do this often...hear of a couple going off track...and makes me step back and truly appreciate what GOOD I have in my relationship!!!
Your comment about annoying the crap out of each other at times??? Lol .....totally get you there too....OKAY we're NOT saints are we?!?!?! Lol. Have a GREAT day!!! And I'm sure them grumpys will pass!!!! We ALL get em! :(
22 Jul 10 by member: Klannoye
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