cjodyssey's Journal, 11 June 2018

Turning 50 feels surreal. A lot of cognitive dissonance going on for me right now. Weighed today then went out to eat. The scale said i had lost 3.6 pounds but with my bed broken i don't have my feet up as much so i have more swelling than in recent weeks. Not sure what I'm going to do about that. This last week I've really been able to tell I've lost weight, especially in my stomach and arms.

I finished eating about an hour ago and I'm already really hungry which never normally happens during my feeding window. It wasn't until i input my food so far for the day that i realized i had not considered my fat intake when deciding what to get. I should have asked for butter for the vegetables. I ate a third of a piece of cheesecake that is supposed to be sugar free and I actually tried some salad stuff. Something must have really spiked my insulin. I should have saved the salad until after i had eaten my protein. I learned cucumbers taste like the rind of a watermelon, black olives are too salty when not cooked in something, grape tomatoes still taste like raw tomato, and baby spinach with boiled egg and honey mustard dressing is delicious.
So next time, ask for butter, save the salad for last, and pass on the sugar free dessert and make something dessert like myself when i get home if I want something. Also, I think i should invest in a glucometer. Mine is packed away somewhere, likely to never be seen again.

I am so thankful for my way of eating. I sure don't have this intense painful hunger when i eat my usual way and i sure don't enjoy having it. I don't feel anywhere near this way when i fast for 20 hours on lchf. Yet one hour after i eat differently(not off plan eating but not matching my macros) I get hungry again, intensely so, like i might get sick if i don't eat again soon. To think this was how i felt much of my life. Kinda sad about that but at least i don't have to stay that way.

474.3 lb Lost so far: 107.7 lb.    Still to go: 250.3 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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2257 kcal

Fat: 145.22g | Prot: 173.75g | Carb: 55.74g.   Lunch: Muscle Maker Grill Sugar Free Cheesecake, Ranch Salad Dressing, Honey Mustard Dressing, Mixed Salad Greens, No Name Fully Cooked Real Bacon Bits, Grape Tomatoes, Mushrooms, Boiled Egg, Great Value Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese, Schwan's Diced Chicken Breast Meat, John Morrell Diced Ham, Baby Spinach, Frial Garden Vegetable Medley, Kroger Ribeye Steak. Dinner: Johnsonville Beddar with Cheddar Smoked Sausage & Cheddar Cheese, Honey Mustard Dressing, Green Sweet Pepper, No Name Fully Cooked Real Bacon Bits, Great Value Diced Chicken Breast, Kroger Diced Ham (Water Added), Baby Spinach, Boiled Egg. Snacks/Other: Jif Extra Crunchy Peanut Butter, Ghirardelli intense dark salted caramel cascade squares, Ghirardelli intense dark salted caramel cascade squares, Great Value Heavy Whipping Cream Ultra Pasteurized, Splenda No Calorie Sweetener Packets, Jif Extra Crunchy Peanut Butter. more...