cindylynnwho's Journal, 08 March 2008

43.5% What makes this weight thing guess the way it does? For example, today it assumed that I had gained, and had 194 in the new weight box. Gee, thanks for your faith in me, website! Oh, well. :) *I* know I am losing, and my buddies do, too. :)

Yesterday I went for a walk, and did strength training and stretching and a bellydance ab workout video. I was getting sick of exercise videos but I really like the one I did last night. I guess we each have to find ones that work for us-- an extremely obvious fact that was escaping me. I was ready to give up on videos.

I can't wait to hit the 180s. I feel strong and skinny lately. I keep imagining myself at 138 or 140. And I feel like I am at times, though the scale and the mirror disagree. :) My clothes are loose, my neck thinner and my tummy flatter. I am very much looking forward for this trend to continue. I am not too far from my mini-goal. And the exciting thing is, that because of my muscles, I think I look better than I did last time I was this weight.

As a small bonus, this man I briefly dated who was really mean to me over my weight will be back from his long hiking trip in a week or so. (that's not the bonus, I'm getting to it :) I have some of his stuff, and despite friends' suggestions to make a bonfire out of it, I am going to be nice and let him pick it up. Unlike last time we saw each other, I will be looking great and feeling good about myself when I tell him where to shove it (which I haven't yet done, due at first to low self-esteem and then to lack of contact), and that will give me a little bit of ego pleasure, although I ultimately no longer care what he thinks. Yay! Triumph. He was the catalyst for me finding this site, btw. So he's good for something, even if its more on a spiritual, big picture level than an interpersonal level. :)

193.6 lb Lost so far: 13.4 lb.    Still to go: 63.6 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.