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10 November 2016
Mentally exhausted. Just very disappointed with the world right now. Hard to get my focus back. Hoping the upcoming week in the UK will be a good reset for me. The guy I'm travelling with is also very health-conscious, so we can keep each other in check.
(9 comments)
07 November 2016
Ugh. Weekends. Friday was a thanksgiving with friends with way too much food and booze, Saturday was my dad's birthday with way too much food and booze, and Sunday was tickets to the Packer game, which again had way too much food and booze. Weekends are dangerous.
Back to the grind today. Made it to crossfit this morning, have an appt with my trainer after work today. Hoping to get a good routine in place. Before I get all sorts of screwed up when I leave Friday for England for a week. Have meetings there Monday and Tuesday for work, but spending the weekend in London before that. The beer there is my downfall. So very tasty. That and the cream tea. Ugh. Gonna go with the 1/3 rule. One out of three of my meals can have an indulgence. Should keep me steady at least.
(4 comments)
03 November 2016
Long ramble ahead. Mostly for my own benefit, so that I can look back on this and remember my reasoning.
Even though my calorie total was too high yesterday, I had a big personal victory. I was able to stop a binge that had already started. Which, I can’t think of that ever happening before.
I had the best plans last night. I was going to make a brown rice stir fry with shrimp. Got home from work and threw the brown rice on the stove since it takes forever to cook. Then realized I had a ton of free time, so it might be good to do some cleaning/decluttering. Realized I needed garbage bags, so I headed to the store to pick some up along with some other groceries. Only on the way back did I realize I left the rice on the stove. Opened my apartment door to smoke just billowing out. Destroyed a pan, but luckily didn’t start fire.
So, stress levels were high, and it was getting late, especially since I had to spend the next hour opening up every window and setting up fans to air the place out. And this is around the time where my brain starts being irrational. That I had picked up whipped cream for a dinner party I have on Friday, so I thought I deserved that. Straight from the can, of course, lol. Then I think that it just doesn’t matter and ordering takeout would be fine since I deserved it and “couldn’t” cook. So I’m flipping through a newspaper ad looking for coupons for the most greasy carby thing I can find when I realize that these aren’t my thoughts. These are my stupid lower brain’s urges that my higher brain is rationalizing.
I forced myself to leave the kitchen and go to the living room, and write down why I wanted to order and eat takeout food until I felt physically ill. The first thing I wrote is that it would make me feel better. On paper, it’s obvious that this in no way would make me feel better.
Second I wrote that I deserved it because I had a bad day and should feel happy. Which made me think of other things, besides binging, that would make me happy. Reading a book, watching my favorite movie, having the energy to go workout in the morning, were all better things.
And then my irrational brain turned off. And it’s like I felt as if I had been possessed. 5 minutes earlier, a binge seemed like the absolute best thing I could do, and now I can just barely remember how I was able to rationalize it. It’s so bizarre. I’ve talked to friends who don’t have this issue, and they just can’t understand it. They think it’s as simple as “Just don’t do it, why is that hard?” And while in one light it can be that simple, in the moment it’s absolutely not.
Anyways, long story short, I ended up making my favorite healthy junk food, vegetarian buffalo “chicken” nuggets, with celery and greek yogurt ranch dip. Moral of the story is that brains are dumb.
(13 comments)
02 November 2016
Well, in comparison to my usual habits, I didn’t do awful yesterday. Was on the road from 5:30 am to 9 pm. Had to go get my passport renewed for my work trip to England next week. Just found out that it needs to be valid for at least 6 months to get in now.
My downfall yesterday was stopping at my sister’s for dinner on my way home. Buttery rice-a-roni, wine, and ice cream, oh my! But didn’t do too bad. Back on track today!
Looking to start some supplemental strength training in addition to crossfit, so that I can work on building better core strength and improving some of my weaknesses. I set up an appointment with a trainer who is going to go help create a program and go over all of the moves so that I know I’m doing everything correctly.
(12 comments)
31 October 2016
The candy. And sweets. Just everywhere this week. My mental mantra today has been "does this align with my goals?" Makes me pause and think about what I'm about to do. Yes, Reese's cups are delicious. But does that taste make up for having to cut out my afternoon snack to make up for it? Nope. Will it help fuel me so that I can perform to the best of my abilities? Not at all.
(10 comments)
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