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Getting back on track. Adding this to my journal to reread when I feel like I am a lump. I aced my semi-annual work fitness test. I finished up with more than twice the required points. Got the highest scores in all sections for a female in a group of 80+. That felt nice, but worried me, because I do not consider myself that fit. Got praised by the ex-army training Sgt who was scoring. He called every one's attention to me, and pointed out my form as "what a perfect push up looks like". That what I was doing was "How it is _supposed_ to look!" Tucking the praise away for when I feel unpraiseworthy. Will use it as motivation to do better. I was glad I was I have been doing them correctly, because I have no one who spots me. I did 14, which was 2 more than I did when tested 6 months ago.
I was pleasantly surprised (and amazed) to hear that only 13 are required for the youngest/fittest age of Army females, and I topped that. That was cool. All morning I'd been responding to co-workers who were asking, as we went through each test, "No, no, I wasn't in the military." Hearing the Sgt say that, I guess the people who were in the military were seeing the way I was performing each section in the same way. I had hit each section with an "I'm NOT giving up, I'm going to do the best I possibly can do on this part!" attitude, and aced it.
BUT, and this is so typical of me, From the moment I said "That
s it." and dropped to the floor, half way through the push up time, if that, I am having trouble not kicking myself because I quit before the time was up, knowing it was more than I usually do (12) in a row. I tell myself that I could have rested in the up position and surely gotten a few more before the minute was up....Ugh!
Which might or might not be true. At the time I was like, I'm done. That's enough. More than I did last time. But increasingly, I feel I gave up too quickly, because I already had double the points needed to re-qualify. I can't change that decision, but have decided to turn it to a positive instead, in that that I will start working on it, pushing myself more, so that next time, I won't have those nagging "didn't do my best" feelings, and WILL persevere, at least planking even if I cannot get in any more, until the timer runs out. I can do that no problem. I won't say no sweat, 'cause wow, planks really do leave me gasping. LOL
I now have 8 pounds to lose, to my original goal. I will decide for sure whether to add another goal 5-10 pounds under that when I get there. I think getting fitter, and into some kind of classes is possibly where I will head instead of focusing on the weight per se.
Funny thing about the push ups. Later, when we were warming up for the first section of Defense Tactics, in among the requirements were sets of 10 push ups each, which I was able to do - easily! Which is crazy, because at 14, I'd thought it was all I could do. But then, there was time, and other exercises between the later sets, which makes a difference. Interesting though, that I just DID it when they ordered it, because they ordered it, and we were all doing it (as best some could) but when it was the only thing on the platter (during the test), it felt a lot harder.
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138.0 lb
Lost so far: 55.0 lb.
Still to go: 8.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 1.8 lb a week
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