Deborahg382's Journal, 10 September 2017

Go there for all of us! Thanks for posting...unbelievable!!!  

You inspire me! How are you feeling at this stage? 

Almost there!!! 

Keep up the good work!! 

NOW MORE THAN EVER!! Early on and when I say early I mean like from day three and a half to 15 it seemed like this journey was pretty easy. I wasn't having any struggles and I wasn't dealing with any mental issues regarding food. Ever since I passed day 15 it's been really hard. I gave up on trying to not think about food, it was too hard to not think about it so it's easier to just entertain those thoughts. I've learned some interesting things about myself. I've found some comfort in watching my husband eat. I can't say I understand why that comforts me I think it's really weird but I'm just happy that I can sit across from him watching him eat and that feels weird to say. I want to thank you for all your encouragement because I've really needed it and most especially now. Today I broke down emotionally because I I'm not dealing so much with physical discomfort as I am mental I'm just really forecasting when I will be able to eat. So much so that I've already planned out what I will have when I break and the days that follow. Every day since day 16 seems like it's just getting a little more of a struggle. And I just needed you to know how much your encouragement and support and your kind words have meant to me. They do keep me going and it gives me that push that I need to keep hanging on and I feel that's exactly what I'm doing, I'm hanging on. This is officially my first fast. Though I tried to do one two and a half years ago I never lost any weight and I quit. So for me this is officially my first fast and I'm about to start day 22. I'm going to day 30. I'm trying with everything that I have to keep reaching for 30 and not give up. It's embarrassing to say that I actually cried cuz I'm tired and I just want to break but I really find it important to reach this goal. I've heard some things from my husband that I haven't heard him say in a lot of years and it feels good that my efforts are noticed by him. 189.8 lbs Faithfully the exact same number for 4 days in a row. Though I'm not depressed about it part of my motivation to keep going was watching the scale move so this too has been a bit of a mental stress. I Faithfully take my electrolytes potassium magnesium sodium and I'm ready to see that whoosh wherever it is. Thank you guys so much. You've been a tremendous help to me and I just really wanted you to know that you've meant a lot to me!!! 💜💙💛💚🌻🌺💋 

Glen than you so much. The nights are hard but the days are all good. It's almost over... Looking forward to a hot meal...lol. thanks for your encouragement! 💜 

Your journey is quite an interesting curiosity to me. 😱 I'm sending you love and hugs for support. 😍🤗  

Thank you Sarah!? 💜