Time2FixMe's Journal, 19 November 2016

I woke up to a Saturday surprise! Mark my words, I am out of the 250's forever! 🤗

I realize it's early on in this journey, but I'm going to venture to say this is one of the most important milestones along the way! Buckle up, today I'm ready to tell more of my story!

See, I lived happily in the low 240's with a few occasional dips for years and never really saw myself to be as big as I was. I've said before that I always swore to myself that I would never let the scale get past 250 and if it did, it was time for something drastic (possibly surgery). Something about being closer to 300 than 200 was devastating.

Looking back, I can't even tell you the day the scale tipped or my reaction. I neglected myself for nearly 2 years and I still can't pinpoint why. Sure I was getting less activity and became somewhat socially isolated but I was never depressed. I even convinced myself I was doing better because I was eating out less.

The number 266 still didn't bug me. Rather it was when I started noticing I was having trouble tying my shoes, could no longer wear the precious ring my grandma had gotten me and considered avoiding work trips for fear of not fitting in the airplane seat that I said enough was enough.

And here comes the tipping point -
I had been wanting to stop my birth control for a few years to see what happened and could do so since I worked from home and any adverse effects wouldn't disrupt my life. I had been on the pill since I was 12 for regulation purposes and had steadily gained weight ever since. I wasn't naive enough to believe my lifestyle choices weren't a factor but I was convinced the medication did play a role in my weight.

This July I went into a clinic (not my doc because he won't prescribe them) to get my annual refill and my blood pressure was high. 1. The dingbat used a small cuff on my thigh-sized arm. 2. I explained that my blood pressure is always good, in fact when I presented with an injury a month before it had been low! (In reality I do think I have a touch of PTSD when it comes to these appointments due to prior circumstances) 3. I proceeded to argue and it only climbed higher with each re-check.

By this point I was fuming! Next she went on to tell me I may have PCOS because of my weight, despite the testing I had undergone before by a specialist. It ended with her calling in a medication that I had been told by other professionals not to take and my saying a few choice words.
I was distraught over her carelessness for days, and guess what? I had a regular check-up one week later and my blood pressure was perfect! I refuse to give this reckless wench credit for any of my success. She had no right to make these assumptions.

So shortly after this appointment from hell I decided to set my long thought about plan into motion. I chose a date to end the pill and on that date I also decided to give weight loss my all and here I am. The last couple of months have been manageable however I'm not sure stopping the drug helped me drop weight as I have lost at the same rate I had on previous attempts. Of course as my body changes I might change my mind, but I fully intend to resume the pill once I hit my goal. I'm proving I can handle it but why shouldn't I make things as easy as possible?

Thanks for listening friends and keep on keeping on!

249.8 lb Lost so far: 19.4 lb.    Still to go: 75.8 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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1820 kcal

Fat: 101.50g | Prot: 94.00g | Carb: 169.00g.   Dinner: Longhorn Steakhouse Parmesan Crusted Chicken (Lunch), Longhorn Steakhouse Mashed Potatoes, Longhorn Steakhouse Freshly Baked Bread Loaf, Longhorn Steakhouse Butter (for Bread), Longhorn Steakhouse Ranch Dressing. more...