amanda123's Journal, 06 January 2012

true, amanda. and i'm always totally astonished when i see how some partents feed their children....and then say "why are they so fat?" it is in their responsability to say NO and to teach them a healthy living. and the best thing is: when partents already are "unhealthy" they should know better...and not let their children do the same mistakes.... wish you a great day! ;) 

Amanda, I think that allowing myself to regain all the weight plus more is almost the same thing as those people, just a wee bit smaller of a scale. For a while there I started to realize that I has absolutely no control over food, especially sugar. It literally controlled me. I told myself repeatedly okay stupid, on Monday you are going to start over. But then there was another excuse. And then it was fine, but as long as you dont have to rebuy fat clothes. But then as if it happened instantly, I was back to where I vowed never to be at again. So if it can happen that easily for me, God only knows how hard it has been for them. It is a daily struggle. And I would like to say I would have to do it if I were them, can you only imagine how long it is going to take them to lose that much weight? I complained about trying to lose 50. And when they cant see the results as quickly as others, it's heartbreaking.  

I know Keli, I can totally sympathize with them on the weight because it is so very hard. What got me was that someone was bringing this woman fried shrimp, rice & soda and she couldnt even get out of her bed because she was 600 pounds. Her weight was killing her. My dad died at the age of 56 because he was an alcoholic and ruined his liver. He quit for a year before he passed away because he knew it was killing him. I would have never brought him a bottle of whisky to his bed when he was too sick to even make it to the bathroom by himself and I guess I just saw it as the same thing when loved ones were bringing this woman bad food that was killing her. I hate that I gained my weight back but friends and family... PLEASE... If I ever got so fat that I couldn't take a shower by myself or go to the restroom by myself... Please bring me grilled chicken and salad and no matter how much I scream, cry, cuss, have a fit... do not bring me junk food! In this perticular episode, I don't think this woman really wanted to give up her food for her health. It is sad because sometimes I feel that way too. I want to throw my hands up and say "screw it, I'm happy and I love food so I will just be fat" But I know deep down I don't want to be that person. I want to enjoy life to the fullest. I don't want to be a slave to my cravings. That is really what happened to those people. Their body became a prison because they loved food more than life. I don't want that to ever happen to me.  

Both of you are nipping it the bud..Congrats....:O)