holidaybunny's Journal, 20 February 2016

Thank you for all the support recently.
Last night the sky was really amazing, hard to describe but the moon was super clear and the cloud glided by so fast with amazing reflection, despite there being little wind on ground level. I found it very inspiring.

I cleaned up my room a lot and got rice of a pile of empty boxes almost as tall as me and did laundry. I felt very productive, albeit in need of a shower which was surprising since I took one that morning. It left me the most relaxed and not anxious that i had felt in a very very long time. I could feel my body sinking into my bed.

I feel guilty because I ate badly esp. around that relaxing point, but at the same time, if i had to trade bad eating from that much relaxation I felt last night I would (not that I should use it as an excuse but it was worth it). I'm too ashamed to see the calorie count, but I'm willing to post the big weight change/stuff here. Mostly because of the support I received on my previous post. ty guys.

I've recently come more to terms with my body and actually liking it more, even if I still want to lose weight. this is huge for me.

152.2 lb Lost so far: 13.8 lb.    Still to go: 27.2 lb.    Diet followed poorly.