amanda123's Journal, 25 July 2011

Here I am again. I am so embarassed. I almost wouldn't come back to fatsecret because I am so ashamed. I fell off the wagon sometime just before Thanksgiving. It's been an all out binge since then.

I have been doing alot of thinking. I have to lose this weight. I even went to a doctor and he gave me some diet pills. They don't really work though. They give me a ton of energy but that's it. I know if I want to lose this weight it is going to have to come from me and not from a pill. So... I thought... calorie counting, just cutting back, Atkins? I thought about it and honestly I have to go with what works for me. The big mystery will be - what do I do when it comes off. How do I keep from putting it all back on like I have done many times in the past?

Well I went from like... 285 ish to 205ish the last time I was here and from a 24 to a 16. Right now I am 272 and a size 22. Here is what I plan to do differently this time. First of all I am measuring myself. I remember getting discouraged when the scales wouldnt cooperate so I want another means of measuring my success. Secondly, I am going to exercise. I now work much closer to home and don't get up near as early as I used to so I will have more time to work out in the mornings.

I am sorry for abandoning everyone. I feel like a terrible friend. I can't wait to read up and see how everyone is doing and I have missed reading your journals.

272.0 lb Lost so far: 16.0 lb.    Still to go: 117.0 lb.    Diet followed poorly.

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1331 kcal

Fat: 107.43g | Prot: 65.29g | Carb: 26.53g.   Breakfast: heavy whipping cream, sweet n low, coffee. Lunch: great value peanut butter, jello sugar free, sugar free drink mix, cheddar, water, vienna. Dinner: sugar free drink mix, velveeta, canola oil, water, broccoli, pork chop. Snacks/Other: roasted peanuts, heavy whipping cream, sweet n low, coffee. more...